hey guys im still here

[fpvfembacktobreakfree]

hey my medhelp family today is a lil better i can breathe proply not laboured pain is not as bad but still bad itll settle in a few more days i want to say thank yous all so much to be able to talk to those who are going thru thr same thing or has gotten thru helps so much thanks again biggest hugs n love from ya girl in oz aj xoxoxoxxo

[fpvfembacktobreakfree]

hey gman my pain is bearable today a much better day thanks so much for all ur support ur a kind soul n we all on here r blessed. thanks for being u gman much love n the biggest hugs ya girl in oz xoxox

Dixie thanks for all ur support n friendship too mate it means alot im pushin thru much love my friend xxoxoxo

Hey B i hope everything goes good when do u have to see him again to get more results im going to get folic acid thanks. Ive missed talking to you heaps too mate its been a while it seems the devil is trying to ride ur back sis kick him off n yell go away ur kickin butt chick.. I'm so proud of you my friend <3 my pain today has been good im goin to the rodeo with my hubby n a couple mates its gonna be cold heaps cold lol but to get out n watch the rodeo is going to be wicked thanks for being u B stay strong my sista from another mister BIGGEST HUGS N LOVE aj xoxoxoxo

[Bkitty]

Hey there Ozzie. I just wanted to post that I had an abnormal PAP last week that showed some dysplagia (cervical changes on my cervix/cancer cells) and I was told I was told by my doctor that if I quit smoking and took folic acid 1mg daily that, that would help my cervix heal. That sometimes cervical cancer can resolve itself ( Im guessing it depends on whether it is high grade or low grade ). I had low grade changes and have to have a PAP and coposcopy every 6 months. Its definately worth checking into before they remove everything.

On another note,,You know how much I love and care about you. I havent been on here that much but I need to be for a while. Im always pulling for ya girl! Im sorry you are going thru all this and the pain issues. You are a true fighter. You will do this. Hang tough! ((hugs))~Bkitty

[Dixiechick72]

Hey there... Checking in on u!!! Glad the pain is a little better for u. U my friend are very strong. U have been doing a good job with all that u have gone through. I'm very proud of u!!! Stand tall my friend ok!!!! Big hugs!!!

[gnarly_1]

Hey Girl for OZ how goes it today pain letting up a bit??? your a fighter girl you will wine this battle it is one lost or won in ones own mind when the pain flares hunker down and push threw it you dont need pillsany more you got this one I for one am proud of you and know you will be successful keep hanging in there........Gnarly  

[fpvfembacktobreakfree]

thanks huni u too r a fighter cant wait to have as many days as u n bkitty yous are inperatinal big hugs n love my friend xoxoxox

[Dane74]

hey girl, i am so sorry about all that you are going through:(  You are one strong and determined lady, you are a fighter my friend, keep on fighting.  

[fpvfembacktobreakfree]

hey guys im here i made it thru lol only with the support from you guys i cant thank all of yous enough BIG HIGS N LOVE <3
today feels better pain is bareable breathing still a lil funny inner strentgh growing daily yippie the show is on here this weekend hope i feel good enough would love to seee the bull rides the aus PBR hope feel good enough to go n its freezing here...
godbless n much love guys aj xoxox
p.s randy baby hope everything is goin well n so glad ya got ya coffee mwah xoxox

[thewaz]

I feel terrible as I've been traveling for work.  I'm so sorry to hear you've had such a rough go of it but what I see clearly is the most amazing strength and an incredible woman who is determined to live a clean life.  Yay for you.  Stay strong dear friend and I pray your pain lessens soon.

[Sonrissa]

Hi AJ! I'm praying for your strength as you deal with all of this! Please take care! I'm thinking of you! I'm going to send you a private message as I have some experience with this situation, maybe I can offer some support! So check it out! Even bigger hugs to you!! Love love love!

[ribs2k]

Hi AJ,
I am sorry you are going through all of this. I am glad the pain isn't as bad today. It is a tough situation. You definately don't have to relapse to get through this. You are strong and will be able to do it.. I wish I could have just the right thing to say, but know I am thinking about you, and wishing and praying only the best for you
With Love,
Randy

[fpvfembacktobreakfree]

i have had threee opions my friend its really thrown me im not relapsing but to feel numb and out of pain would be so good but im not caving im being tested and im going to succed no two ways about it i havent gone thru hell to be back there in a couple of weeks nar not me my friends my inner stregth comes out at the most strangest of times but thanks to my medhelp family i have the support n friendships i cant find here theres no aftercare here ive beeneveywhere na on the phone i dont have the money for the phones calls everyday thats why im here you guys r amazing my rocks,my friends, my family(online) lol would love to be able to meet all of u that would be wicked i reckon.....
thanks for being there for me godbless all of u im goin to soak in the shower for a while il be back ssoon...
biggest hugs n love from oz aj xoxoxo

[gnarly_1]

Hey AJ hows it going....it sounds a bit better then it was  nothing s u c ks more then pain im sorry you have to feel it but just push past it I know it hard but in the end it will be worth it you can break free of this stuff onece and for all  just going to take some perseverance so hang in there it will get better good luck and God bless..........Gnarly

[dominosarah]

I would get a second opinion on all of this my OZ friend~~~

[fpvfembacktobreakfree]

thanks dane i was having a much better day just got phone call from the hospital about my cervical cancer it was removed last week turns out it aint all gone and they want to do a full histerectome {i dont know how to spell it) all i know is i want more babies im 31 to young for this i think of all those other woman like me that didnt get to be a mum... i kmow you can me a mum with out carring but i really want to make my partner a daddy we lost our lil girl 3 yrs ago thats when all the problems plus the car accident in 04 i caved to my pain now fighting for my life as we all are here sorry to ramble a mess right now cant beleive this man!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Dane74]

Aj, i am so stinking proud of you!!!! You plummeted through the pain, good for you, you will have good days and bad, just go with it  and take it easy on yourself.  You are beating this demon, continue to fight my friend, you can do this, just believe in yourself.

[fpvfembacktobreakfree]

got my ipod goin cranking the music medicene fark i can not spell lol stay strong my friends god knows im trying my hardest!!!!!!

[fpvfembacktobreakfree]

thanks chick im watching movies with my hubby n best mate just jumped online to let yous know im ok i wouldnt have made it thru yesterday without yous... i can tthank u enough sonrissa your a beautiful soul im blessed to call you friend big hugs back at ya hope ur kicking butt love aj

[Sonrissa]

hey AJ! So happy to hear you are feeling better! I was worried! Just try to take it easy today and relax!! Hang tough! Stay strong! Maybe crank the music or something!! Take care honey! Big hugs!