Everybody must still be sleeping or doing the normal go sunday things. I actually thought about trying to go to a church this morning but then I remembered I cant even pay attention to an hour long tv show how could I possibly handle that maybe next week I'll try again. It seems this is becoming a regular pattern for me try try try again. Oh well at least I am giving it an effort and it feels like I am doing the best I can but obviously I am not because I am withdrawing so that in itself tell my story....