Here we go again

[what2donow]

Good morning
Most of you know that I was 25 days clean and messed up pretty bad.Im ready to do it again.Someone suggested a "quick taper". The concept is that I take today, half of what I took yesterday.I am supposed to go down by half everyday untill im down to none.(4 days) My question is do you think there is really any benifit to that over c/t? I would think it would just prolong the suffering.What do you guys think.No matter what, im either doing that or going c/t today.Somthing has to be done.I feel like im setting out on a journey im destined to fail.I hate being in a hell that I willingly and knowingly put myself in AGAIN. I wish that someone stronger than myself could just pick me up and carry me to the other side of this,but I know I have to do the work.No pain no gain right.I just dont know how many more times I can watch myself fail.It really starts to effect your outlook after a while.
So here we go again and it feels just like the first time.I feel  scared, and alone.But maybe somthing inside will click this time and I wont go back.Thats what I pray.

Im sorry im in the needy mood guys :) Thanks for being wonderful always

[Emmas Mom]

You CAN do it!!!!  What did your liver function tests say?  You know that I am here for you and whatever you decide I will support.  I personally think tapering even a little bit can help reduce some of the symptoms.  I have done really short tapers in the past and versus completely CT it does make a difference.  Just in my opinion.  Keep posting and I will keep you in my thoughts!

[mcray]

I am new to the site and I was brought here by my buddy who is on this site. I currently fighting the pill addiction as well. Oxycontin was my drug of choice. I just wanted to let you know there are people out there doing the same thing and fighting the same fight. What are your thoughts on suboxone? It has helped me greatly. I am 2 weeks sober as of yesterday.

[NautyOne]

depends on how bad the screw up was........if it was just a couple days you should be ok.     if it was for weeks......a little taper cant hurt.  It just depends on the person you are.  If your a chicken-chit like me .......the taper is better......if your a ballz-out person the go ballz-out and get it over with.  be good to yourself and don't beat yourself up.

Luv,
Nauty..............

[LexiDoodle01]

Sweetie you were right there yesterday helping me! You can do this ! We can do this together! Im here day or night ! I have also been on Norco and today is my second day CT =) Message me anytime ! I mean that , you are a great mother from what I have read and we all have our hard times! just know that im here

<3 Lexi

[1234betterlife]

honey, keep trying different aftercare. sometimes aa/na work for some. sometimes it takes trying different groups until you find your "spot". sometimes it is just not for you and you may need to seek other alternatives. i see a private counselor, that works for me. there are other intensive outpatient treatment centers as well. some of these you will need insurance for so i do not know your situation there but i, like you, cannot do it without someone to be accountable to. accountability is huge here. i CANNOT rely on myself. i just do not have it in me.

[gizzy32]

i have already seen you dish out great advice to people on here. it's ok to be afraid, and you would be crazy if you weren't. you just had a little bump and your getting back on track. you should be very proud of yourself. all of us here know how hard it is and we are behind you in your recovery. stay strong and give you little angels each a big hug.