1 Month for me too Worried-WOW

[Flutterby111]

Well, so much has happened.  wicked withdrawls, horrendous sweats, miserable tears and everything in between.  I've met some new friends here...one in my "real" life too.  Lost a friend-(see you sucker-percs)...and have been suffering what my counselor and others here have lead me to believe to be PAWS....it's been a journal through hell.  I'm glad to be here though.  I haven't sobbed in 2 days.  That's amazing to me.  I have knots in my stomach though, as anxiety seems to be my new partner... I've made one of the toughest decisions ever, well we (my husband and I) and feel free to chime in, I'm going to give notice to leave my job.  I had my daughter in November and had my tubes tied and with all of my emotional turmoil, there has been alot of discussion over what's important in life...and right now, we've decided that our family, our sanity, and our happines rule.  I love my job, and get paid really well for no education, love my boss, so this is tough.  But I love my baby more.  I want to help my husband grow his business and take better care of my son and all of us.  and let's face it, I need to get my head screwed on straight-I go to the shrink on Friday.  Live and learn....But 4 weeks today....wow.  Yay-worried, we did it!!!  We're doing it...we're living...life...the good the bad and the in beautiful...

[Missy31]

Congradulations on a month thats just wonderful.

[newmanagment]

Awesome job!!! you have come so far, and now to dedicate yourself to your family, that is tremendous!! putting your baby first is great, and helping your hubby grow his business will be best for all of you!! congrads on the clean time and everything else too...
see all that and hardly no ghetto LOL  much love flutter...

[gizzy32]

wow there are a lot of milestones in recovery on here today, woo hoo. congrats on the month flutter and this is where is will start to get a lot better. so good to hear you making these big decisions in your life now, and capable of making the right ones cause that fog is gone. i am so proud of you. still laughing at your record of consecutive med help posts, haha, but you know im teasing. congrats again

[bladerunnerb]

That is SO awesome!  Congratulations!  As one door closes, two more open.  I think you've made a great decision because it was YOUR decision.  You took control of your destiny and are now charting your own path!  Sure, there will be bumps in life...there always will be.  The pain lets you know that your alive, and makes joy so much joyful!  God is watching over you and your family.

[Firefaery1023]

Congratulations!  You are doing great!  We are all so proud of you.  Yes it is a battle, but in the end it will all be worth it.

[Mikeinthesouth]

no doubt congrats

[Flutterby111]

I just hope this isn't some irrational decision brought on by PAWS---no it's not, my husband isn't suffering PAWS and it was his idea!?!?!  He's crazy-but not nuts!  You know?  Thanks you guys!  You're right Bladerunner, it's MY decision, wonderful perspective, thank you!

[Flutterby111]

Wait a second...does it still count if 4 weeks ago tomorrow I slammed a bunch of tylenol 3's in desperation since I was out of percs?  I'm still good right?  It only delayed the withdrawls, barely did a thing otherwise.

[confused456]

Sorry I was gone getting hubbys teeth pulled...yea for me bad for him...LOL...he had 3 pulled!!! YIKES!! anyway, CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOO-HOOOOOOOO

[flmagi]

Wow, You're a month too? Way to go!  Another big asset to the forum and another sucess story. You keep up the good work.

[Flutterby111]

OUCH!!!!!!!  

[confused456]

Ya, thank God it is him and not me....I know, my bad!!!

[Clamity2]

Congrats on the month! I can relate to most of the crazy withdrawal. It's great to be a stay at home mom if you can afford it. There are so many beautiful moments in the first years.

[Beaten]

Congratulations!!! i'm on day 6....lol. Sounds like your making some really positive changes. Good for you.

[Flutterby111]

you know I got mad love for you girl!!!!!

[toxictome]

Flutter......................CONGRATS...you go girl!!!
I am so proud of you...i knew you could do this!!!
Hey...just a thought? Is there any way this could be post partum depression? I'm not really sure when it starts....
As far as the job...I don't think you will regret it for a minute....i stayed home w/ both of my kids...they were the BEST  years of my life....i loved it til they got to be about 6 and then started talking back too much!!! LOL
My 9 y.o. cries when he reads his baby book ...he wishes he was little again..he is so funny and sensitive!!!

Anyway...glad we're on this road together!!! and we'll celebrate many more dates!!!!

[worried878]

We should be proud...seems like along time ago in a way...when we first started posting...If you guys can survive financially on your hubby's salary...I would go for it...think it thru...it would be good for all if the paycheck is not vital...Wish I could...you gonna find me a rich man and I will retire with you!  lol

[Flutterby111]

Thanks ladies,
Toxic-I talked to 2 different docs-they said it's definately PAWS, not post partum, because that's what I thought too, thought the pills numbed it and withdrawls triggered-they said no....

worried-we ARE proud.....with good reason.  ups and downs, right? OMG< where is the rich man?  we'll find one!

Clamity, let's never go through withdrawls again!  EVER!