cant do it without my freinds at mh

[stilltrying1965]

Im really sorry but we are back to square one again everything was fine the last time we were on but the next day a personal incident happened which affected us badly and my wife kim ended up back in hospital that day and i have no pc either and i just cant do it without the help of my friends here as my family are offering me no support and have washerd their hands of me which i cant blame them for i have let them down again. Kim had to havea part of her lung removed. Her other tests were ok except for thyroid and she has diabetes but she is still quite ill and i just cant cope. Im so scared im gonna lose her. If that happens i will end up dead i know it as she is my soulmate and i love her so much that i cant put it into words the way i feel about kim. I have a loan of a pc for a day so im coming on to explain to all my friends whats happening and to say sorry as i have missed you all so much but i just couldnt get a hold of a pc and cant afford a new one just now.James

[SophieShine]

Good Morning James!!!!!
I sure hope you´re doing.... you know where to find me!
Your TX gal, xoxoxoxo. sophie.
PS Huge hugzzzzzzzzzzz and kisses to Kim

[gizzy32]

I have missed seeing you on here James. i am sorry for all you have went through, but you know that using only makes things worse my friend. We learn recovery as we go, and I hope you learned from this. You could have afforded the pc, instead of H right? Please keep posting, we are here for you and still proud of you, but can't stand by and say nothing as this drug is killing you. Find that stength and do this one last time, you have a lot to live for. Send me a pm if ya want:) I hope Kim is ok.

[stilltrying1965]

thank you so much for your support i will tell kim you said hello iv had more support here at mh than i have ever had here at home its so hard when no one beleives in you my own family have  not spoke to me apart from telling me im a loser big time so thanks ella for your kind words hugs back to you james

[Ella789]

  It's okay,  you can do this another day.  Please try to make it for Kims' sake, she needs you too. Sometimes life is over whelming and it is tough,  we are only human and do human things.  You just take care of yourself and Kim.   Tell her hello for me and  big hugs to you both!

Ella

[stilltrying1965]

yes sarah im really sorry but things happend that i just couldnt cope with. I know it sounds silly but i just cant seem to do it without all of you guys to help me and i cant afford a new pc just now and with kim so ill again its made it worse and she had to get another part of her lung removed again which frightens me. Thanks Matt i think they can treat the thyroid stuff ok its just the rest thats the problem. I hope your wifes ok and thanks for your concern and support

James

[C8H10N4O2]

James,

I'm sorry to hear about your wife.  The good part is that her tests have come back good.  My wife has thyroid disorders as well and those are at least usually treatable with medication.

Good luck and be safe.  Keep moving forward.  That is all we can do.

Matt

[dominosarah]

Hi james.......are you using again?