Bad day

[VicAddict26]

i'm having a very weak moment tonight.... i'm emotional so i'll get right into it... i run an adult foster home and one of my ladies died this am in my arms, i spent from 10-3 with officers, medical examiners, ambulance people, and firefighters, when diner was supposed to be at 2 pm then to top it of,for christmas this year my parents disapeared for 10 hours before calling anyone... so you can imagine she what if's running through your mind about at that 8th hour after not contacting anyone and supposed to be at your house for dinner can do a mind.. well all of these emotional things are making me want to use because that is how i've lived with grief for so long,, and now i'm about 12 hours into detox, so it's not bad yet but the brain is screaming give me my drug, and i've just had the christmas from hell!!! I need support bad... I really want through it this time, i want my life back, and i want myself back.. i keep just trying to tell myself the emotions will come easier and i guess i just need to hear they do... by the way i'm coming off of a 150-220 hydro addiction of three years

[SmartYetStupid]

Sweetie?  You are doing a FANTASTIC job.  The fact that you were on your first day of detox and doing all that you did is amazing.  

You are going to have ups and downs.  I would suggest Amino Acid Protocol.  There is a link to the page at the bottom right of this page.  They help tremendously for those mood swings.  

Also, you may want to ask your doctor for some Valium or Xanax (but don't take it too much - it is just as addictive as Hydros.)

And I'm with you.... I don't remember my life when I was sober. It scares me a little.

[flmagi]

You will eventually just be the sober you, new and improved. You have some tuff days ahead of you, when the worst of the withdrawals hit you, but you can get threw it. Things will get better. Try to take these next few days (or a week) for yourself. It has to be about you and only you. Worrying about others and the rest of the world will have to wait til you get threw this. Put yourself first now. You have to, then everything else will slowly fall into place.
Stay strong.

[VicAddict26]

You know what really ***** though?? I don't really remember who myself is sober...

[trenchy]

you are having a bad day- but while detoxing EVERYTHING IS MAGNIFIED- ur brain will try tellin you u need hydro's to calm down- but u no u dont ur emotions will become easier to handle everything seems so raw now because ur just not used to feeling that way. i know its hard but plz stay strong take it hour by hour if needs be. dont givin  you will come back to urself  PEACE.