I am so scared....

[LeaAnn807]

Hey guys.  Tomorrow I am taking my baby to the hospital for tests on her heart.  She had 7 hour open heart surgery last year, and now she is having problems, so we are very worried.  Her cardiologist said to bring her tomorrow afternoon, and it's out of town, so we are leaving late in the morning tomorrow.  I am paralyzed with fear, but I don't want a pill. I just want my little one to be ok!  She has been turning blue and running high fever on and off.  Her temp today has been over 102!  

If you pray, please do for me, my husband and MOST of all.....our little Maddie! If you don't pray, please keep us in your thoughts tomorrow!  I would really like to handle this withOUT a relapse!

Thanks everybody!!!

[avisg]

Its going to be ok .... I have been where you are except my baby had cancer its the most helpless someone can feel .Just hang in there .we will all pray for you all . You all will get threw this.

[dominosarah]

Sending extra thoughts and prayers your way~~~~~~~~sara

[cathy5841]

You are doing the right thing reaching out before relapsing!  You need to be sober to get through this. Be strong your hubby n baby need u.

[gnarly_1]

HI  and I also know your pain I watched my daughter in icu in a coma from a auto accident
it su##s when its your kids going thew something hang in there and trust God he will come thew for you...I will say a special prayer for maddie tonight ...may God bless your family abundantly your friend Mark

[abritt121222]

I am SO SO SORRY TO HEAR THIS and hope absolutely nothing but the best for you and am here if you need to talk about anything at all but stay strong and dont reach for the pills reach out to family and friends and everyone on here will be here for and i will be praying for you and your baby tonight

Good Luck and Godspeed

ABritt

[vicki595]

Hey~  Hang on,okay?   They'll get to the bottom of this...

I'm around;anytime...shoot me a message.

You're strong,Sweetie~~

Sending prayers...
Vicki  xo

[addicted32]

I will say a prayer.  Stay strong let us know what happens okay?

[WaywardWendy]

I've been watching your progress and advice, and although I rarely comment, I felt compelled to now. Fourteen years ago, my 2yr old baby was diagnosed with cancer. They started her on chemo that day and everyday thereafter for three years. The first week of chemo I thought it would help me to take some vicodin to get through it. I had a car wreck prior and knew my Dr would call in a refill, which he did.....for the next three years. I believe he too thought they would help me get through, regardless of the pain from any car wreck or not. When those refills ended, my habit didn't. Over the next few years I found them, wasted so much money, because by then I was up to about 25 of the 10mgs per day. Here I sit, 12yrs later.....taking about 300mgs of oxy per day. Yes, I have had some health problems that warrant me taking them, but not that amount. Not to mention i don't always take them for pain. If I hadn't ever called for that first refill, health problems or not, I doubt I'd be on this site writing this reply. As I mentioned, I've watched your posts and progress, and have been impressed by it. You can do this without the aid of some little pill.  Just imagine being where I am years from now. The worst part, your child will never know you sober, if in fact you were to get caught in that cycle again. Be strong for the baby, focus all your extra time and thoughts on her care, and it will hopefully occupy your mind. In these times, they will find what's wrong quickly and fix it. Then you will be back at home, SOBER, with your baby, and that much stronger and a better mother because of it. Good Luck and may God watch over you and baby. You're strong enough to do this, I've read your progress that proves it. Hope everything turns out just fine in the end, and I believe with all of us here praying for you it will.

[LeaAnn807]

I dread this so bad I could croak!  I'm trying not to let my husband know how scared I am.  He worries about me so much!!   He will be with me ALL day and ALL through this, so I don't have to worry about that.....just the answers we get today!  They are doing an echocardiogram as soon as we get there.

She is only 18 months old, but she is a tough one!  She will get through this, I know!  Her Daddy and I will make sure of that!

I want to thank all of you for your posts.  It really does help to have some e-support!!! : )  And I have a lot of support here at home.  

Thanks again.  I'll let you guys know something as soon as I can!

[vicki595]

Yes!  Let everyone know what's happening...You've got a lot of energy coming your way
so stay strong!!
Glad they're doing the echo first...it's very diagnostic.

Big kiss and warm hug for Maddie~
With love~
V.

[Leah1964]

I will be praying today for you and your family.  You will go through this sober and with clarity of mind and heart for you and your sweet little one.  She needs you all in!  I pray for a peace for you that defies your understanding.  God Bless!

[Jebs317]

I will pray for Maddie.  Please let us know as soon as you can how she is.  
I know that this will test you, but you will find the strength that you need.  She will be alright.......So many good thoughts coming your way!
Kristen

[10356]

I'm very sorry to read this I add my Prayers with all the others for Maddie yourself and hubby.. They will get to the bottom of her problem and will soon be working on a solution.. stay strong.. warmly lesa

[Htownnofrown]

Just sent a prayer yalls way. Lean on God during this time, he is the great physician who can heal all. We're all here for you!

[avisg]

its going to be ok let us know what happens

[LeaAnn807]

Hey! We are our way. I will post from my phone when I know something! Thank you all!

[bugsy89735]

Just wanted to send you a note of good luck, hope all goes well and its not too serious! keep in touch ,,bugz

[dominosarah]

Let us know when you can..........sara

[pharma9]

I just know everything will turn out ok and you will remain drug free.
It is a difficult time and your family needs you to be healthy and clear of mind.
You will both pass with flying colours and we are praying for you all.
Many complicated medical problems are now fixable with modern medicine.

[LoandTansMom24]

Just said a prayer for your family! I have an 18 mth old daughter and I can only imagine what you must be feeling right now!! Stay strong! Your baby girl needs you!!

[stilltrying1965]

TH i will keep you and your husband and most of all lil maddie in my prayers. I Try and stay strong my friend. You will not relapse as yor family need you so mch right now. I wish you and your family all the best for when you all attend the hospital. Know ill be thinking and praying for you and your family ,,,,James

[wishful1]

good luck and please let us know what happens....dont use!!!

[oompah54]

Praying for good news for Maddie . . . and support and strength for you and your husband.   Deb

[shinningmom]

Praying for your family especially the little one..... My son is a year old and I can't imagine having to deal with something so scary.  Be strong, you guys will all be great in time.  Sending prayers and love to you and your family!