Well, I'm back!

[jlannspr]

I shouldn't have quit reading and posting. I have relapsed. I started with the "what could 1 hurt" mentality. That 1 has led to 4 hydros a day for the past three weeks. Today is day 1 again. I've been irritable, but I"m working. I just want to cry, and thinking why did I start this over. Like so many that come back, I feel like a failure. I want my life back. I read all the "relapse" posts and thought that won't be me. I'm stronger than that. I was so pumped about quitting and excited and offering everyone advice. To anyone reading this: Please stop or don't start. Encouragement needed :)

[NorthEast213]

Sounds to me that you have learned a valuable lesson.  You know there is no such thing as "only a couple".  You came back here and are ready to kick this thing for good.  Learn from your mistakes so they are not in vain.  Stay motivated, post often and you will do great.  You know you can do it my friend.  Immodium, gatorade rest and before you know it you will be through the worst.  

Good luck!

[selfinduced]

Good news is the physical w/d won't be too bad. The mental part will beat you up if you let it.....DON'T! Flush any pills laying around, smile at the thought that your now back on track and go forward. Sometimes relapse is a necessary reminder of how bad these pills mess with our well being, souls, and life in general. Tomorrows a new day, a clean day. Now you know better, and you will do better. Hang in there!

[jlannspr]

Thank you so much. I have no one to confide in, no one to trust with this deep secret. I want to tell someone, but fear and let down is all I can think of. I sure pray the w/d symptoms will not be as bad. The mental part is tough, bad tough. Thank ya'll again, keep the encouragement coming.

[rizboy]

hey mate,sounds like you have recognized where you went wrong, as long as you learn from it who cares??pick yourself up and carry on.theres always tommorrow.take care.chris

[overthepill]

I had 6 months of clean time before I started to slip around the holidays.  I also thought I could just take one here and there, but as we all know, it never turns out that way.  My relapse has lasted until now, about 2 months.  Can anyone speak from experience as to how my withdrawals will be after that length of use?  I have been taking about 60 to 80 MG of percocet a day.  The shameful thing is my sleep patterns were finally back to normal.  I know that 2 months of using is going to jeopardize that.  This is my first time coming off a relapse and i'm not sure what to expect.   I hope it won't be as bad as my first detox after 19 months of use.  I'm at about 20 hours now and feel OK but the worst obviously could be yet to come.

[Sharon0255]

I have been where you are and it is a lonely scary place. Try not to dwell on the physical detox that's just the drugs trying to mess you up. You have done it before as have I. The one thing I've learned is it's the mental part that gets worse. I'm trying again I just quit last week after 9 days and I felt it now I'm quoting again after 5 days. Here I am feeling like a total failure for trying to not take pills when I'm an addict. I could be totally isolated right now in a room with just dope but I'm here caring about you. Which hel
S me care about me. Take it an hour at a time. PM me if you want. Welcome back.