I got my own account now

[wantnormalagain]

Well that was easier than i thought, i dont know how to transfer our conversation from my moms account to here, so any questions and i will answer them again, i just wanna quit

[wantnormalagain]

Well tonight wen to ****, i didnt use but boy do i want to, and ill leave it at that, I will be on tomorrow for an update, I trusted someone like crazy, now it seems it isnt the same...man i can screw things up fast, my buddy was right, he said meeting someone online never works, and i though it might considering all that was said. oh well enough of my personal stuff, nite all, i will check back in in the morning and let ya know. i will do all not to

[quitinoxys]

Glad to hear you are doing so well. You should be extremely proud of yourself as all here are of you. You are on the road to recovery and remember aftercare is key to that recovery. Staying sober means changing your life to live as a sober person. You have a great attitude and with that and your support system I know you will make it. So stay strong and committed to your recovery and you will make far down the road to a life of sobriety. God Bless---Rick

[wantnormalagain]

I can understand that, If i did it would be with someone who helped me through this, who helped keep me strong, but what you said still makes sense, I never thought of it that way, as it looks now, the other person may change there mind, and your right i thought about it, but didnt do it, but i could see the temptation, s it happened and i am sure it could happen more than once, I will follow your advise, thank you for opening my eyes, i appreciate it, and to you also Tgtiffany, I appreciate your advise also, i will take both to heart and hold on to the advise and be more carefull going forward, i just thought since it was someone who helped me then my chances would be better,,,,guessed wrong

[tgtiffany]

I again with IBKleen 1000000% on that one.  This is not the time for a relationship.  You have to find YOU again and you need time to do that.  Focus needs to be on yourself not someone else or anything else for that matter.  If I were you I would hold off on that for a while yet.  Don't get down, you are through the WDs now you gotta get through all the mental crap Gnarly is always talking about.  Don't go down the wrong road, because it will lead you back to he ll.  Good luck as always :)

[IBKleen]

Glad to see you are hanging in there. That said, I have to be brutally honest---starting a relationship at this point is extremely dangerous. You ned to work on you and get yourself well before you can even entertain having a relationship with someone else.

Relationships early in recovery are a great way to take the focus off of yourself and a great place to lay blame when, or if, things don't work out. Let's say things don't work out, what do you think is going to be the first thing you think of? I can promise you it will be drugs.

You are only a week out of a toxic relationship. Ask yourself if you are really healthy enough yet to get into another one.

Recovery is not about hanging in there. That will get old real quick. Recovery is about change, going forward, and learning. I hope you find it and I wish you well.

[wantnormalagain]

I am doing well physically, but emotionally i realy don't know< i am trying my best and havent used at all, but with diffrent things going on it is tempting, I start therapy tuesday so I hope all goes well there, hope she ccan help with the cravings, i stay busy all day, and it takes my mind off of it, but at night thats the hardest, i am sleeping, somewhat normal, met someone and that has helped but not sure where tat is going now, but it isnt an excuse to use, i know this, one day at a time,i  lost track of that but i got it again, it took Dave to remind me, I amlost forgot I am still an addict just in recovery, its so easy to gorget, Sorry for th elong time to update, i have been talking to someone about it all, but no excuse i should have been comming here anyways, sorry guys, but i will be back daily if i can or at least every other day. Back on track, No i didnt use, Im proud of myself no matter what