I lost my will power

[kat2923]

Hi guys. I've been clean from lortabs for a little over 2 weeks now. I gave in tonight and took some and I am feeling horribe about it, but this time I enjoyed the high and I did seek out the pills. I see this is going to be a never ending battle for me because I love the damn pills too much. When i'm not on them they are all I think about. I know I'm stronger than this but until I stop loving the way they make me feel I don't know if i will ever be able to give them up. I'm no longer physically dependant - I self detoxed. I do have chronic pain so i'm not just taking them for the high but that's still no excuse. Has anyone else been in my shoes, and if so, what did you do to finally stop wanting them all together? Please give me some feedback.thanks!

[Downey]

Who hasn't slipped? Who doesn't like the high? Don't let this slip set you back to the point you have to start all over again.

Downey

[worried878]

part of it...we gotta go see how well we can do after we quit for a while...start thinking we can play..sad thing is we can not...do u have any aftercare?

[kim715]

Many of us have been where you are.The mental part outweighs the physical part by leaps and bounds.You reached out and thats good and you're feeling guilty about it and thats good too.This forum is a great place to get help,but I strongly believe in some one on one after care also.Talking to a professional or attending meetings can be so beneficial when it comes to trying to overcome the intense mental part.I come here and I attend AA meetings,I didn't care much for the NA meetings in my area.Thats what does it for me.Don't beat yourself up about this,the guilt won't do you any good.Relapse often goes along with recovery.As long as you're still fighting you're still in the game...Peace......Kim

[ochooked]

So you fell off the wagon - -let him who has never done go throw the first rock at you.   In the meantime, get up, dust yourself off, and begin again - -- you can do this - -    Don't give this site and all of the 'professional lier's '  (as far as drug related matters) on here cause to roll on the floor with laughter as you try to explain that your addiction is so different which is to imply that your body chemistry is totally different that you are in a class by yourself - --- you aren't --  come back to earth and    I would be willing to bet that you need to be involved in other areas of your life -  go fishing, golfing, get something new in your life,  No one ever told you that this would be easy but I will guarantee you one thing - if you don't deal with this problem now, you will at some point and it will have grown exponentially by then.  I hope you have a close friend or relative (one who doesn't use) to seek help from.  Do you have a pastor, priest, clergy, Teacher?   People like us need other people and can often not make it without that extra help. Think about it. Don't be a loner.  The one really good thing about your post is that you are reaching out - - keep doing it even if you aren't making sense.  There will always be someone to help or talk to you.  I wish you the best now and that we don't have to talk to you in a few years with a very large habbit. (or from jail, or a hospital).