2 years ago I fell down the stairs and ripped the tendons in my ankle. I have been on percocets for over a year now. In my mind, I am a strong person and would never believe I could become addicted to these pills. After 6 months I was taking 10-12 a day and started feeling really bad. My kidneys hurt, I was irritated, anxious, and cold sweats every morning. I started wheening down and ran out of them, went through severe withdrawl and it lasted over a week. I was off them for 2 months and I struggled with depression and I wanted that good feeling again. Then I had to have surgery and there I was back on them, but I said I was going to follow a very strict schedule this time. I managed to do that and went off them again only to go through withdrawl again. Following the 2nd week after withdrawl, I got mono, which I had as a kid, and believe it came on because of the withdrawl. I was down for 8 weeks. In January, I found a bottle with 80 percocets in the back of my cabinet so I started taking them again, one maybe two a day. My Dr has me on nuvigil to stay awake during the day and the bad feelings I get from that are offset by the percocets. I want to stop taking all these drugs but I dont think I can. When I am off them, I sit at home all day, depressed, and I crawl in a shell and shut out the world. My friends know somethings wrong. I used to be the outgoing, happy, sociable one that everyone loved. I want that person back......Where do I start?