Day 10 off norco

[Vecci4u]

Hi guys I am a returning user... I came on last year but ended up relapsing hard ... Anyways after battling with this I am now 10 days clean... Was taking 10-12 norco per day

I have never gone this long and dealing with do much... I am past the immediate torture of withdraw ... But I still feel achy, alot of anxiety , very fatigued , sleeping horrible even with ambien... depressed and lonely feeling....

I so want to just feel normal , but this is so damn hard... Through all the withdraw I pushed myself to work, try and go out a bit and be a bit active,.. All I really want is to lay alone in bed,,... Tough with a wife and two small kids.

I still also have cravings... Just like one pill and you are superman again, but I know this is a sick road to continue....

Any advice at this point ?

[toothfairie]

hope you get a peaceful night's sleep!  if you find you can't sleep, don't fight it....just watch some tv.....tmrw will be an even better day for you!  stay strong...you CAN do this!!  

[EvolverU]

Sorry,
           Also wanted to say, confession's a great thing especially if you've got a good rapport w/your priest. This could be a huge anchor for you. I know going to services everyday few days helps me.

[Vecci4u]

Wow excellent post evolves , that is jam packed with some good info... I am in agreement I have to kick start some of these things so I stay away from a dangerous idol mind

Thank u both evolver and toothfairy for you encouragement it feels so good to talk to others that walked this road...

A new day tomorrow I will try at least one thing new..... It's hard at work right now cause I was superman there , now it's hard to concentrate and thinking of the medicine.... I have been turning on music during those times to drive them out

[EvolverU]

Welcome back! Congratulations on your 10 days. That's Huge! You're through the worst of it, you don't have to go back. You CAN do this. I know the sleeplessness, up & down emotions and other symptoms are a drag. I promise that minute by minute, day by day, week by week, this too shall pass. Try to decouple from the symptoms by coming to the site. Treat yourself well: eat things you enjoy, flush your system w/ plenty of water, listen to the music you love, take a hot bath w/ salt as often as you please, watch a good movie, try to walk outside a little bit everyday. Toothfairie's on the $, especially about jump starting your detox/endorphin production w/exercise. Plant-based liquid Melatonin at bedtime and 5-HydroxyTryptophan might help you sleep a little better. They've been lifesavers for me in the past and still are. It may take a little more time off your drug of choice to feel the full benefit of these. As for 'just feeling normal again' via Norco -- try to  bear in mind that  we've lost what it is to feel normal.  That's one of the main reasons we're all here, right? We want our brains, bodies and souls back and I know you do, too. Stay w/ us and make it happen! You deserve it.
                      

[toothfairie]

well it's good that you are eating well....stay hydrated too...and thanks for the applause....you will get there!  

cravings still come and go....not very often tho...usually when i work my weekend job and i'm exhausted i'll think "a pill will sure make me feel better" but the thought is gone in a split second...i make myself think of something else...i listen to alot of comedians on Pandora or watch youtube etc.  Energy is much much better....i started back both jobs after 2 wks.  I was lucky and didn't have to work thru the worst part of WDs.  I was able to take off cuz it was around Thanksgiving.  Keep your mind occupied with movies, tv, music or books etc... i promise it does get better.

I thought it wouldn't ever but it did....i just listened and trusted people with lots of clean time on here and they were right.  Hang in there....you are doing great at 10 days....especially if you can eat...i lived on ensure and gatorade for over a week...lol  then slowly started eating small things.  Do as much activity as you can, it helps bring your energy back.  

[Vecci4u]

Ya eating well , never had nausea through this. I applaud u on 4 months , I can hook on that hope.

Well ur 10 is me lazy tired , biggest thing is mental and thinking of it...

How are ur cravings and energy now

[toothfairie]

i've been clean a little over 4 months...it's amazing to me that i can say that!  and you will too!  day 10 i was still tired and no energy but luckily i had couple weeks off and i could lay around the house.  How are you feeling now? are you able to eat anything yet?  

[Vecci4u]

Thank u for your words. Wow nice to find other at the same doc and dose... How long have u been clean, how was day 10 for u

[toothfairie]

and also i was on Norco as well...about 10-12 a day too...but for many years.  It's a tough road back to sobriety but one that's so well worth it!  

[toothfairie]

congrats on 10 days clean!!  that's great!  and it's great that you are getting out and working too.  You just have to hang tough...you've come this far...you know it gets better....and i feel alone sometimes in a room full of people...i think that's normal....we are still healing, body and mind....and it's tough to bridge that gap between our old selves and our new clean life.....just hang in there...and post for support when you need it....we can help you get thru the tough times!  

[Vecci4u]

Thanks for your reply. Yes my wife knows. I knew that there was no faking it through this o reason if I wanted to really stop. I came clean. I have not been back to church yet to mass. I have prayed, the last weekend it took everything just to go to grocery shopping, in which I had panic attacks throughout.

I did meet with a priest though last Tuesday and confessed all in which we had a great chat and he absolved my sins.

To me it's like I can't focus on the here and now... I feel like someone who lost their best friend and all the power I had to build into such a successfull person

Funny the money, the nice cars the nice job , everyone admiring me , yet I'm the one totally lost

[atthebeach]

congrats on stopping again. 10 days is a great start.

[atthebeach]

hi, proud of you for coming back. yes it is a sick road to continue.
the road called recovery is a long and winding road, walked step by step, day by day. it is a marathon not a sprint.
you know what you have to do to stop this roller coaster, merry go round.
get rid of all access to pills, have you been attending church?
does your wife know you relapsed?

[ImDONENoMore]

Just keep going.  Do the work.  You can do this and you have to tell yourself that every time you have a weak moment.  It can be that simple.  Hardest thing any of us have ever done, probably, but break it down to the basics.  It's easier to deal with everything that way.  Oh yeah, and aftercare.  Don't skip that part.