Is there hope for me?? Really...

[4way2long]

Been taking narcotics for 13 years! Is it even possible to stop? I want so badly for my life to b my own!

[4way2long]

Just wondering, did most of u take a couple weeks off from life (work, family etc) while detoxing? I'm curious to hear from those that had been using high doses for years.

[jifmoc]

No one is saying wds are easy. We are saying that in comparison to STAYING clean, it's a small blip in time.

Detox blows, but there is no way around it. There just isn't. The choices are face detox, get into aftercare and have a life. Or keep using and it's jail or death. This is just gonna get worse and worse if you don't nip this now. I'm sure you know that.

Honestly sounds like rehab would be the best for you IF YOU STAY. Is that possible? If not, you'll just have to deal w/ being uncomfortable for a while and do home detox.

[4way2long]

Yes the mental anguish is terrible. I see everyone is saying the w/d is the easy part but it's just not that way for me. The physical & mental w/d scares the **** outta me. I've been there & wish I didn't have to go back. Since I've been on these for too many years I am able to go pretty low & physically b ok. It's my terrible depression, anxiety, not able sleep & just plain meanness that I'm not looking forward to but after I talk to my pcp he shld b able to figure out something to help me thru the 1st few weeks.

[Jerry198]

well good morning and welcome, if you want to get clean because your a drug addict well congrats it wont be easy and it can totally be done at home many many people have made it yet struggle daily to stay clean.

So whats the deal just done with the pills and want to move on? I have to tell you that being an addict an have piles of pills in the house is not going to work unless your man locks them up in a safe bottom line you will cry and cry just give me one please!!! trust me the toughest out there have begged for just one more.

First come clean with your guy then work on a plan to have some down time maybe a few days before a weekend that way you can get the bad days out of the way then understand that for a few weeks things are going to suck both at work and at home that's just the truth no easy way out but can be done just check out all the surviving warriors on this site they are all in different stages of recovery and you can hop on board when you are ready or just hang out for a while and get some tips best wishes.

[gnarly_1]

Hi...well your posts scream addict all over them  the detox is the ez part it is staying clean that takes the work  this is 1/3 phyical and 2/3 mental  the mental part is what has brought you down....I have never heard anything good about the rapid detox  yours is a typical story  if I where in your shoes I would try to taper down a bit b/4 detoxing your on a huge dose  this wont be e/z to do but if you come clean with your husband he can hold the pills and give you a fighting chance to win this thing  just know it is possible to find recovery but this just wont go away on its own  I always recamend the N/A program you will need contuing support to over come this the meetings are only a hour long and the progam will teach you how to stay clean  keep posting for support..........Gnarly

[4way2long]

Thanks everyone 4 commenting so quickly. Now I'll tell u the whole truth: I did a rapid detox in 2005 for 10k, I cldnt sleep, had an illergic reaction to the med that was supposed to not let me feel it if I used, had 2 small children & lived at my moms house at the time. Needless to say I completely failed & starting using 3 days after rapid. I've tried to taper but, yup, if they're there I'm going to take'em. Tried a rehab in 2007 & lasted there only 24 hrs & left. Honestly for me, the hard part is detoxing. I really wish there was a magic antidote for the withdrawals. But this time I REALLY want my life back so I'll try the tapering method again. I've made an appt w my pcp which is a huge 1st step because once the "cat is outta the bag" there's no putting it back in. I'll b checking back in soon...thanks again.