Just shy of 8 months

[Dane74]

Hello to all, i just wanted to share  that there is light at the end of this long journey.  It has been a heck of a time for me to get and stay clean, with allot of challenges and tests along the way, but somehow i have managed to succeed thus far.  I know this is a forever battle, but what i am finally noticing is that with time it does become easier, and the cravings/thoughts are getting better each and everyday.  I have learned so much going through this journey and one thing that stands out the most is that us addicts are strong willed and fighters, when we put our minds to it, we can do it!!!!!   Life is starting to come back to normalcy for me, yes after 8 months, but i can now say i smile again, i wake up and feel alive not like a lump on a log, and my kids notice that i am not so darn cranky.  I feel  again, sometimes thats a good thing and sometimes not, but overall its a great feeling.  Aftercare is a must, i still see my therapist and I'm sure i will for a long time, getting to the "root" is something that i have and continue to struggle with but with professional help I'm working on it, and learning the tools to cope.  I am still amazed that i became an addict and it took me a long time to realize it, maybe being on the bathroom floor after i passed out was a wake up call?? Reaching my bottom and finally coming to my senses that i was on the road to self destruction and really fast, was the scariest challenge that i had ever faced.  And i just owe so many of my friends right here on medhelp a huge shout out  for not giving up on me and for convincing me that i did indeed need help and fast, i cant thank you all enough and you know who you are!!!! I look back and see how low i really was and i am still in shock, wow, i have come a long way, and i will continue to fight this battle because i now know that living my life on opiates was not living.  This is a fight that we all have to endure but guys its so worth it, i promise you that, just to feel empowered that you turned down your DOC or didn't cave to temptation is just an amazing feeling of victory.  Thank you so very much to medhelp and especially to my friends here, without you guys, i would either be 6 feet under or close to it.   I am so very grateful for you guys!!!  

[Teresa1717]

for only..."One more night"... hahaha

[vicki595]

You know how I am....I can't stop loving you...

[akitagurl12]

LOL

[Teresa1717]

LOL Vicki!! Nice one!!! Very very nice!

[ImDONENoMore]

OMG - this could go on all night!!!!  Thank you PHIL!!!

[vicki595]

I'm not sure but I think there's SOMETHING IN the  AIR  tonight!