I am so Impatient!!!

[IWantMyLifeBack5525]

hi all still here and working my a@@ off at gettin this monkey off my back....it seems to be getting harder not easier...I feel very depressed...I have an appt with my dr tomarrow to talk about depression but I am not sure if its true depression or depression that will go away over time after being off opiates. My legs are killing me they feel like they are breaking as i walk...I had a 20-30 5/325mg percocet usage dailey....I have been clean 8 days so far laspsed for two and was clean 11 before that how long does this leg pain last? I have not one ounce of energy and I dont think one drop of dopamine is getting to my brain...PILLS PILLS PILLS thats all I think about I go to bed happy thinking maybe tomarrow will be the day I wake up a feel better but I am ok for a while then BAM! fatigue and depression hit me like a mac truck! I want to see the world like its supose to be seen not through fog and anger! I am currentlly taking a multivitamin and Ltyrosine should I add in the 5htp (?)  or heres another question should I go see the doctor and be put on an antideppisant? I dont know what to do.  any and all advice is welcome and appricated thanks for listening to me whine.

[IWantMyLifeBack5525]

Thanks everyone for there input...axel...thats what I thought to about the antidepressants is they take awhile to work so I am going to talk to the dr and see what she reccomends I do...I think I am just looking for that wonder drug that cures me ya know...cause thats kinda how I thought of my percocets my wonder drug...I have to be paitent and let my brain heal...patience was never my best virtue..lol...well I went out of the house and went to the store and I am alive and I made it back so it wasnt the worse thing in the world....I cant wait to look back and say wow I made it through my addiction...this is tough and I am so glad I have all you guys to help me. hopefully tomarrow will be better than today...I hope my doctor actually listens to me cause shes a complete bi@#$ but I guess I have to start somewhere...I want  to walk but its been pouring down rain here for 3 days and supose to for the next 5 so guess I better start looking for a treadmill or something...thanks again for listening I will keep you posted and as always advice and opinions are always welcomed :)

[Axl_0113]

I'm not saying that the antidepressants might not be a good idea, but don't they take a week or two so to really start working?  You might ask your doc about that...

I know what you are talking about though... I had no energy for a while too.  But I forced myself to eat right (after my stomach finally settled down) and drink lots of water, and exercise.  Lots of 20 min walks!  It was hard becuase I had no energy, but I forced myself to do it, and it seems like it helped speed up the process.

And I actually looked forward to my walks, because that was when I would kinda talk myself up, and re-focus my thoughts.  Little pep sessions that would get my blood flowin!  They really did help.  And then when I wasn't charging myself up, I would try to stay as busy as possible.  Something that takes alot of concentration and brainpower to keep your mind off of things.

[scarredone]

I just want you to know you are not alone. I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. The pain is sometimes so bad that I can't even walk. My doc gave me Darvocet. I needed help to get over my addiction. I think it's a it's a great thing that you are considering seeking help. You should definitely ask about antidepressants. You may need to get help for you to get clean. A 12-step group is probably the best way to go. They are different types of groups so you can pick the one you feel mostly comfortable in. Your addiction is controlling you. I think that even posting here asking for help shows how badly you want to get clean. You have taken that big first step. I am so proud of you! Please keep me posted. God bless you!

[10356]

I understand how you feel.. You are early into your recovery and it may help to get a antidepressant on board for a few months.. others have found benefit.. we did not get addicted over night and we did not stop as soon as we realized.. it is going to take time for the mind and body to work the changes out. I remember how bad my legs hurt walking but I continued daily and it soon let up. I do not know if you have been up front with your Dr. but it may be a good idea as the more he knows about your situation the better he can advice.. Patience time and keeping ones self occupied is what works.. AA NA meetings also help You will feel progress just give it time. I was taking between 25 and 30 norco in the end of this last round and it took over a month to really notice the benefits.. hang in there You are in a war for your Freedom.. It will be worth it.. lesa