Kicking Subutex

[solitary1]

Day 3 after a little over 7 months of Subutex use. I took a quarter of one from the beginning till the end, except for the random (time to pop a half of one) days. My stomach is twisted in a knot, RLS, sleeplessness, hot flashes, etc. When I started drugs I started with pot, then came xanax for a long time, my family knew of the xanax addiction for years because you cant stop the slur after having 2 24 oz's and 1 bar. That part of my life is history, xanax ruined my life and now that I'm off it, I'm finally getting trust back from my family, somewhat. My family is drug free, me and my sister are the outcasts. I started taking all of these because I've had manic depression and anxiety since i was 8 years old.

A year after defeating xanax, I went to live at a friends house, and since I was a user all my life, all my friends are too. I started inhaling roxycodone at this house, and I lived there for 6 months, I couldn't beat the setup I had because my long term friend was the main supply for that, so I did about 3 Roxy 30's each day for 6+ months until he got busted and showed up on the news with everything the police apprehended from him. So I kicked that, started taking the subutex to rid the withdrawal and so that I would quit taking opiates all together and have motivation/encouragement in my life because I've always been lazy, and it's not by choice, I know some of you would argue differently, but you're not me. I don't have any real support from anyone, nobody knows whats going on with me right now because I'm scared to tell my mom that i quit xanax only to pick up a nastier habbit, they will never trust me again, ever. My mom and dad are all I have, I'm 27 and I've lived a life of drugs and misery, and so did all of my friends. The conversion of having tons of drug addicted friends to having nobody at all because I want to clean up is really hard for me,

So day 3, I'm prescribed klonopin and I don't abuse it, but it is helping along with smoking extremely high potent smoke profusely and it's still painful, I'm taking the week off of work because my work requires me to be ultra nice with grade A appearance. I'm going to the doc today to be put on clonidine, I've already been exercising for the past month so I'm not quitting now, especially since it helps.

My remedy so far: klonopin, clonidine, promethazine, B complex, B12 shot from doc, multi-vitamin, high potency smoke and extremely mild drinkin, just to take the edge off. Just like everyone else, RLS is kicking me in the balls and I'm not using immodium right now. This is day 4 now.

I know what to do, but I don't. Know what I mean?

[laurel453]

try hot baths with epsom salts, Hylands restful legs, potasium rich food ( banana, spinach, apple juice, tomato soup.. ) , magnesium+calcium+zinc supplements for RLS...

and get rid of all your friends that are using subtances.... hey, day by day... it will take some time getting energy, motivation and sleep , be patience, don't go back , ok ? good luck :)

[solitary1]

Just got offered to pay $100 to help my friend get his Subutex script to where I'd get a substantial amount. It's very tempting seeing I'm glued to the couch, thermostat on 80 with a heater blowing right by me, along with a blanket. This is my hell, and those cold sweats are only a piece of this miserable puzzle. My back hurts like hell and I'm experiencing chronic fatigue. I had RLS before drugs, when I used to test in school or if I couldn't get my work done fast enough, RLS drove me nuts. That's happening right now as well.