To those still struggling!

[Innerstrength67]

Hey you guys, I'm not sure if I'm jumping the gun here because I'm on day 6 and I know that's not a lot of clean time BUT....I promise you that you CAN put down the drugs. I NEVER thought I could do it. I would wake up in utter panic when I didn't have anymore pills. All I could think about was which drs could I still go too, which pharmacies I went to last, how many mgs of Vicodin I had taken that day, how many pills did I take that day, how many pills did I have left, how much money I had to pay drs, what new areas could I go to and find drs who didn't know me, was I going to feel buzzed from my next dose....and on and on and on!!!!!
This is what consumed my mind for 2 years. I know you can relate. There are many of you reading this and thinking.."that's me".
Well, all I can say is, if I can do it, anyone can. Yes we all have different levels of inner strength but when we are down and out and full of despair, we ask for help.
The people on this forum gave me love, strength and courage.
You can win this battle! You just have to be sick and tired of being sick and tired.
Can you just imagine how wonderful it will feel when you can wake up in the morning and not freak out because you only have 5 pills left. Well I can because I dont have to live that way anymore.
One day at a time. Aftercare is crucial for me.
Thanks fir listening and if you need me for anything I am here.

[dedicatedtostop]

Great post!!!!!!!! I concur.

Congrats to you, it's all about"inerstrength" :)

Keep up the great work, and keep inspiring others as well.
I am so happy you feel good, Congrats again!!!

[chaddavis333]

Way to go!!! I know how you feel. I am a day ahead of you, and can totally relate. I can't believe how God has made us. Our bodies can heal from anything. On day 3, I thought I was going to be this way forever, and now I am a 100% better. Keep it up! We have to fight this thing. We may not be responsible for our injuries or even our drug use, but we are responsible to fight it. Hang in there, and if you need encouragement talk to me, and I hope I can do the same to you!!!

[Innerstrength67]

Thanks Catuf! Awesome clean time. Yes. All we have is this moment. My first day, I took could only handle one hour at a time. It gets better!!!

[CATUF]

it's very good that you have 6 days.  congratualtions.  i remember when i couldn't string 3 days together.

stay in the now and don't use TODAY.  you can't not-use tomorrow (it's not here yet), you can only not-use today and if you don't use today, you're doing the most important thing for your recovery.

it's the same deal with aftercare . . . one day at a time.  what you did yesterday was for yesterday and you can't do anything tomorrow (it's still not here yet), you can only engage in your aftercare TODAY.

yesterday i had 2,299 days, so i didn't use and went to a meeting at noon. today i went to a meeting at 9:00 and i don't think i'll use today either.

CATUF
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