In Need of Moral Support

[wannabefree330]

I am an addict on my 2nd relapse.  Started taking lortab again for a bum shoulder in Feb.  Like any addict I cannot take as prescribed and have managed to work myself up to taking 10 lortab 10s every 3 hours for the last month.  I want out of this!!! over the last 2 days, i have weaned to 7 lortab 7.5 every 6 hours.  I know its what i want to do, but i'm so damn terrified of the withdrawls!!!  To top it off I have no one to confide in for fear they will be too disappointed.  I have been lying to them for the last 4 months.  

[worried878]

Just want to wish u luck and remind u not to lose ur motivation...have u read the tapering article in the health pages?   it has some good pointers in it..keep posting

[Mikeinthesouth]

I found that the more honest I am with the folks around me made it easier for me screw em if they hate me for now I'll deal with that later. U no? AT least I will be alive to do it and that is another reason this site is so important to me is it was a lifesaver and hopefully the same will be true for you. I have relapsed a few times and keep jumping back here to find my saving grace. Read post take advice vent whatever just be here and it will make it easier for you. prayers for you, Mike

[wannabefree330]

Yes i was taking 10 pills (10mg lortab) at a time every three hours.  Would not use during the night.  But bet your buns I'd wake up and first thing is pop some-still do.    Today i am down to 5 pills (7.5mg lortab) at a time and taking every 6 hours.  Not enough to get high, but enough to stay out of w/d.  So, to answer to your question, the pills are not as strong, and I have cut my use in half and the frequency in half.  I was taking at least 60 pills (10mg) a day; I am now taking 15 tablets a day. (7.5mg)  I really wanted to wean down to 3 tablets every 6 hours today, but I wasn't strong enough.  I can tell I'm w/d though.  Every little thing I want to cry.  Emotions are a roller coaster.  Anxious as hell.  yesterday I had to take a 1/2 xanax to cope.  but have not taken any today.  Wish I had a weeks worth of vacation time available.  I'd quit cold turkey and get it over with.  but do not have that luxury right now.  That's why i decided to try weaning.

I really appreciate all of your support here.  It is nice to have someone to confide in and not be judged.  THANKS!!

[road2recovery]

Glad u are here....you can do this again..Relapse is a part of recovery..Also confused about the amount this time, u mean you are taking 10 pills every 3 hours this time? then weaned yourself to 7 every 6 hours?  that is great that you are tapering///
but how many per day?  I would think you are not taling about nite time?
If you are strong enough to taper then it will be so much easier with w/d's
we have all been there, so stay with us and hopefully we can help
r2r

[lady67]

I think you will find that the people on here are so supportive, and you can rely on them for anything.  I don't even consider using because I don't want to let my friends on here down and I don't want to be a hypocrite.  

Keep working at it, sobriety is AWESOME!!!

[GoingToMakeIt]

You really can do this! Yes w/d are no fun, but you do live through them. Compare it to a really bad flu or food poisoning. It last 5-7 days for the severe part. Some people are doing ok at day 5 but each one is different.

[newmanagment]

i have soo many relapses i  cant even call em that ne more LOL!! you can do it , the fact is ya gotta keep fightin even after relapse, because one day sober is better than a week using !! post ya butt off, and ya know all the fine people here will help, only addicts can truly understand us, so hit that post button the next week or so why you w/d!! much love and understanding...

[dominosarah]

Just keep telling yourself you can do this and it will be all worth it.  I read sooooo much early in my w/ds and posted i thought i was going to go blind but it helped.  The week or two out of my life was well worth it.  I am enjoying life and getting back in to the swing of things.  Relationships are mending and i finally got to have my grandson for 4 whole days.  This is worth it.  There is a TON of support here and we will help you get thru this.  sara

[wannabefree330]

Thank you!! that is what i really need to hear right now.  I did see the thomas recipe and have the clonidine and xanax but the vitamins and minerals make sooo much sense!  Last time the clonidine, xanax and immodium were a big help but I've never taken as much lortab as i did this time.  It always gets worse every single time.  I hope this will be my last time.
Thanks again!

[dominosarah]

You can confide in us here.  You wont dissapoint any of us.  We have all been there.  As for the withdrawals they are not fun but doable.  Look at the thomas recipe on the right hand corner.  I went C/T so dont know about the tapering.  Withdrawals were not pleasant but am so glad i did this.  YOU CAN DO THIS TOO>  Stay here and keep posting.(  I loaded up on vitamins and Immodioum)     sara