when wds was bad made it now can't

[0421]

How come when the wds where at their physical worst I made it and felt proud, now my pain gets the best of me, I keep ending up taking the vicoden becasue I just want to sleep and stop hurting, Going in the hospital tomorrow for a back injection pray that it gives me some relif. I am so disappointed in myself that I am this weak, but I never knew how much pain I was in. I can't even get anymore vicoden my Dr won't give it to me, so there is a time coming up soon that I won't have anymore and the scares the he11 out of me. guess I don't have a question just looking for support.

[0421]

thank you the two of you for responding to me.
I do have a diagnoses, in 2008 I got shingles on my siatica nerve, not heard of very often, it took three and 1/2 weeks for them to figure out what was wrong with me because the poxs where internal. I ended up with post herpectic nuralgia. That is what I take the Lyrica for, my leg is very weak and lost muscle in it and now I have arthritis in my spine, didn't know I even had it becasue the vicoden was covering it up. I will go in to hospital at 2:30 this afternoon for and injection in my back and then go back next Tues for another. Pray that I get some releif.  It has been since March 17th that I started this detox, my Dr seems to think that I should be through with it, rebound pain should be gone. what is the thought of anyone, do you think that I should be back to normal physically????
I know the mind tricks are still there, but what about physical problems?

[vicki595]

It's true...pain seems to increase before it calms down. Your brain is hard at work wanting you to feed it!   You'll need to know what is real or not real. It all FEELS real but until you're off the pills for awhile it's really difficult to differentiate.

Do you have a diagnosed back problem?  Have you tried Motrin 800mg 3x per day? Hot baths?  Lots of fluids?

Don't be scared. Talk to your doctor and ask for some help. I'm sure he/she will help you
if he feels you really don't need the pills. There are meds he can give you to make withdrawal a bit more comfortable.

Please don't be so hard on yourself. Believe me,this has nothing to do with strength or weakness. You need treatment.

Keep posting,okay?

[justneedtotalk]

Well....Pain is a legitimate thing.  Some times our pain is based upon our addiction.  I will have to admit that once I went sober for a little while my pain was actually not as bad as I thought when on pills.....Your Dr. taking you off is another good sign.  

You honestly have to look at yourself in the mirror and ask...."am I an addict?"  Only you know the real answer to that question.....Withdrawals are worse each and every time we relapse....It sounds like you are still in the honey moon stage of opiate addiction....Soon it will not become even a question of needing to quit...It will be weither or not you can make it through withdrawal's once more!  

There are a lot of non-narcotic pain relievers that you can discuss with your Dr......I hope that you realize that you must quit and quit now....Good luck and God bless!