Our secrets keep us sick. We have to put our pride aside and reach out to others so i know NA would be of great service to you. You will learn the tools you need to stay drug free. You will also meet new people who will be a great support system. Changing our playground and playmates needs to be done to be successful. Are you getting your meds from a doctor?
Pain killers can cause a person to go down an extremely deep rabbit hole. 10 per day is pretty bad but it's nowhere close to as bad as it can be. I was at 24/day before I went to a doctor and got on Suboxone. Not sure if you've done any treatment yet but IF you do get off the new meds as soon as you can! It's so easy to stay on them but don't! Think about the whole rest of your life. Opiates start having a different affect on the body after several years of using them straight. They numb you out for starters, you just stop caring about things that you used to. Best advice I'd give is definitely get part of a support group. It's amazing how much difference you see when there's an actual person that knows what you're going through and can be there for you.
And one last thing.. know that whatever you feel it's not permanent. The withdrawals will not last forever, your body WILL adjust. Just like the song says, "Nothing lasts forever, even cold November rain".
Hi and welcome to the forum! How much and what are you taking? There is no cocktail, only time. You can take supplements/vitamins to help but that also takes time. NA is free and very helpful. You would meet others who know just what you are going thru. Using is just a symptom of what is going on with you. You are worth fighting for. Keep talking as we are here to help.