This morning I felt particularly antsy, woke up early, had some restless "leg" syndrome (extends to my whole lower body, what's that called?). Coffee and Advil helped, plus the 25MG of Tram this AM. If it's just this I can manage, but am getting anxious about when I totally go off...will I feel like this non-stop? For how long?
I'm also getting anxious because I'll be starting to taper down to a lower dose than I've ever had in 6 years during a newly arisen trip to be with a very old relative. This will probably be the last time we all see him...and my mother will be there and being around her triggers these old scripts to run (to use a computer term...I can't think of a better way to describe what happens). She makes me feel crazy, thankfully my husband, who knows what I'm going through right now and how she affects me, will be with me. Does the serenity prayer really work...cause I may need it.
Serenity prayer takes practice, but yes,it does work..It points out reality at best. If you can't change something, don't waste anymore energy on it :)
Today is my first at 25mg in the AM. I made sure I timed it 12 hrs apart from last night. Now that I have had my coffee I feel fine. I just don't feel great when I first wake up. I think I'll start doing yoga because I've read exercise can help, and that always helps with how I feel when I wake up the next day. Phase 2 of detox initiated successfully though!
The mornings are rough. I used to have to practically jump out of bed when I opened my eyes, because I felt awful the second I woke up. That does go away!
That's the feeling I'm having...like I want to jump out and away from feeling so agitated.
I KNOW! It's not very fun way to start the day or really to have anytime of the day! It gets better. Give it a few days.