My friends i failed... what now?

[duluthguy]

I did it, I was cleaning out my truck and found 2 percocet, I took them so quick I didn't even think about it... I cannot believe I did that... What do I do? I'm just shocked and mortified, 21 days down the tubes... I can't believe I'm even posting this... oh my...

[eyeofhorus2010]

Boy, can I ever relate to that. I've started over 3 times now since August. That's why I'm so glad I found this forum. It's convinced me that it's important to develop tools to deal with cravings and that's huge but after a few weeks of being clean I don't suffer the cravings all that bad. What trips me up are those brief moments I find myself staring at them face to face and no one else knows. That's the area I need the most work on.

Don't give up now.. so far you've only tripped and stumbled but you didn't fall down completely. Stay strong and quit cleaning out vehicles. My garage is a mess but I don't dare start digging around out there anytime soon cause it'll happen to me too. At least that's the excuse I've been giving my wife for not doing it already. lol

[ImDONENoMore]

Your wife will understand as I'm sure she loves you.  Please don't be so hard on yourself.  It's okay - you'll get past this and you will keep going on.  Stay strong.

[dominosarah]

Duluth, you only let yourself down as we understand how quickly it can happen.  Most of us have been there and that is why we always preach recovery care.  No you wont go thru wd's but you will take a beating mentally.  Hard lesson to learn but turn the negative into the positive.  Dont worry about the days, just do it one day at a time.  You can do it Duluth, i know you can!!       sara

[vicki595]

Yes,you could go right back to withdrawal but I doubt it after only two...Don't take anymore. Drink fluids,eat dinner,and go to bed. Start looking for an AA/NA group in your area.  Do not beat yourself up. It's done and you got THAT out of the way!

[MV77]

There you go.....you got a bad feeling from them and that will help you figh this fight even harder than before.  Let us know how the talk goes with your wife.  

[duluthguy]

I just am so unbelievably tired, I cannot understand why I would even THINK of popping them things... I have to go tell my wife now... There was no good feeling, no "up", just made me tired and now sad... I am so thankful that I have you all on here, what would I do without my dear friends?? Will I go through WD's again? Thanks u all, I feel like I just let down the world...