My turn...first day clean

[Charetti]

Hi all,  

first day clean for me and as expected I feel like ****.  I have been in here long enough to know how to prepare for it but doesnt make it all go away.  The hot tub helped tons and I could take my dog out right after it. That was about an hour ago and I feel ucky again.  Having a hot chocolate now.

One of the only symptoms I am having that I didnt expect is this weird feeling like an electric shock that runs through my body.  I have the chills and know what that feels like and this is different.  Also noticing my eye sight is a little blurry, but thats not too surprising cause I feel like I am in a fog anyway.

Whats happening with me is bearable as long as I keep my eye on the prize but I am worried about after today.  Not sleeping is a concern.

Pray for me folks and I will keep you updated.  And thank you soooo much for being here!

[Lovemyhorse]

I'm sorry for you. I'm just starting as of 6:00 PM last night. This morning is already hard for me mentally.
I hope you can get back to your goal soon.
LoveMH

[Charetti]

It didnt work out.  I am soooo disappointed in myself.  Last night my blood pressure dropped and I became sluggish.  My son paniced and called 911.  They took my blood pressure and took me to hospital. I thought "Great, now maybe I can detox there".  Nope, they gave me a shot of morphine and told me to wait till I see my doctor before I detox again.

So now I wasted my 28 hours clean and will have to start again.  I am so disappointed in myself.  At the time I told myself it was out of my hands and wasnt my choice, but I know I easily gave in.  By the time the doc saw me in the ER my bloodpressure was better so I could of asked for help detoxing but instead I took the first option they gave me.

This isnt the end, see my doc on Monday but still feel so sad about it.  Having all the support in here was wonderful and I hope you all understand.  No need to send your comments now but hope I will get the same level of support next time, hopefully Monday or soon after.

[newstart730]

Yup, we all know what you mean about the time crawling by on day 1.  But you've done such a fantastic job so far!!  It gets easier soon.  Do your best to get some healthy, easy to digest food in you.  Bananas are GREAT.  Gatorade, tons of water, fruit smoothies were all helpful for me.  I found that eating a little bit even when I wasn't hungry was the key to bouncing back from the fatigue.  Remember, food is energy!  And if the tub is working for you, stay in until you are a prune :)  We're all rooting for you

[Charetti]

God, only 5:30 now.  time is sooooo slow.  Been in the tub 4 times today but just remembered about the juice.  I havent felt like eating anything but I did eat a banana.  Now having juice and will try to keep sipping on it all the time.  It does taste good.

[Charetti]

Thank you everyone.  I am crying my eyes out cause I wanted to give up but these messages will hold me a while longer.  Yes, time is crawling very slow, cant believe its only 4:00.  My son is home from school now and I told him I have the flu.  My nose is running, my temp is all off so he believes me.  There is so much of it around right now too.

So heres to another hour.  I do have a miniseries on DVD I have been meaning to watch. I will save that for tonight.

[MrClean2009]

Hi Charetti....What bothered me the most was how slow time seemed to travel...almost as if God had purposely slowed down time as a way to ensure that I remembered the feeling....best for me was watching movies and reading...it really does take your mind off of the cravings...especially in the middle of the night when I couldn't sleep....I remember the worst day was day 3....I watched the ESPN 30 for 30 episode on Len Bias.....at the very time I was ready to jump off of my recovery, I got to see what happened to Lenny Bias....I'll never forget what his father said at the end...."you never know how a decision to use drugs will affect your life".....it was exactly what I needed to hear, when I needed to hear it!

This is the most important fight of your life....you will win it, because you will not give up or give in!!!!  Fight the good Fight Charetti!!!!!

[Mom4Peace]

Hi sweetie! I'm not a user, but my son was. Don't give up, everything you want is there, just keep your eyes on the 'prize'. You will have ups and downs no matter what is gong on in your life. Just remember to love yourself and that you ARE loved. :) Everyone is here on the forums to help you too!!

[shrimpman]

Great going---you can get through this----what helped me the most with the physical part was the Thomas recipe----treat the symptoms----it should pass in a few days----I'm now 5 days clean and only feel tired-----get emotional support from anyone you can----this is a great forum for that-----I pray for all of you that going through  this -------I'm starting to live again-------it's worth the pain------Best regards to all!

[newstart730]

Congratulations on making the decision to quit!  That's HUGE :)  Yes, I the "electric" feeling *****, especially at night for me, but it passed in the first few days.  It seemed like it comes in waves.  For me, the hot bath helped, but also take magnesium and eat a ton of bananas for potassium.  Get moving as much as possible.  On my first day, that meant taking the dog for a walk.  After that, I worked my heart out at the gym and it helped so much.  Keep posting, and everyone on this site is very kind and helpful.

[NorcoQueenoftheUniverse]

Hey sweetie  GOOD JOB on your recovery process!  Very proud of you!  
First off CHOCOLATE IS GOOD!

Now to try to address some of your symtoms:  

"Electric shocks that run through your body..?"
that's just part of the withdrawl process.. my feeling was that my SKIN WAS CRAWLING.. and/or I was going to come OUT OF MY SKIN... this will pass.. what I found that worked for me was to place a cool towel around the back of my neck.. I lived with MY TOWEL for about a week...

plus trying to GET OUT for a little sunshine and exercise... I KNOW that exercise sounds like the LAST thing you want to do.. but it will help kick in  your natural endophins and get your blood pumping... which in turn will help you sleep better at night...

Blurry vision... I think that's our bodies way of saying.."Hey.. I'm coming back... I can't see very well thru the FOG but I think it will clear up soon".  (and .. it does).

Best of all. You stated that you have your EYE ON THE PRIZE... yipee.. THAT'S THE WAY TO GO... you have determination and a WILL TO LIVE!  

Best of luck and big hugs and prayers your way!
NorcoQueen

[freedom007]

ahhh, the electricity..that sux.  But in my experience, it is the first phase and will go away first.  No matter how bad it gets...you will get through it...there is no one on the site that hasn't...and trust me...every minute is one closer to freedom.