Struggling

[MarkG61]

Tomorrow will be day 30 clean from Percocet. Physically and emotionally I'm feeling much better that I did a month ago when I stopped c/t. Knowing the fact that I can go to the Dr. any time I want and get another scrip but I don't want to go through the hell if the 1st couple of weeks of w/d again. Today, I'm really struggling with this and from now on. just knowing that it;s there for the taking is really tough.

Any thoughts?

Mark

[MarkG61]

about a year ago I came clean with my Dr. This isn't the first time i have detoxed. about a year and a half ago. I was much worse. I actually went to a three day detox center. went to NA meetings, I saw my Dr. and told him. But really this guy is just money hungry he doesn't care as long as he gets his 65 buck each month, he'll right me the scrip. I know I need to find a new Dr. but most of them around were I live are the same way. So I need to rely on myself to "just say no".

[vicki595]

I know exactly what you're saying. You left yourself a safety net and you know what?
You'll use it.  I did the same thing.  So you need to call the doctor and tell him/her not to prescribe. It's important to do this.  I've done it and it's hard but it won't kill you.  :)
You really need to sever all connections and get into some recovery care. You have to make it work. You can do it!
Vicki

[Jebs317]

Hi Mark,
  I was in the same situation.  I detoxed CT at home for 21 days.........the day I could get my script filled.....I did.  8 days later, I was in the same boat.....
This time, I went to my PCP and came clean with her.  I didn't have the strength to call the Doctor at the Pain Clinic....so I signed a release form to have the nurse call and tell them "no more".  I am on day 20 and my script would have been available today....but because I had the nurse call....I know that I can't get it.  It is SUCH a relief.  

Now, like Dav said.........I can look forward to tomorrow being day 21.

Good luck and keep going!  You are a month clean..........go for two!  Together, we call all do this!
Kristen

[Dav125]

Stop thinking about it... Think about day 31 getting here :)