Another Oxy victim

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Hi, I will start off by saying thanks for anyone that helps and comments. I have been addicted to the little devil they call Oxycontin. I have been doing it for about 4 years... of course taking more doses as it progresses, take about 200mg some times. I have bee tryin to take Suboxone for the last year or so. This only helps with he physical side of the addiction for me at least. I know that you have to look at the mental side it to becasue for me that's where the battle is. I know that success is a state of mind..... I have seen a consular/therapist few times, and it has help just to release thoughts and all but not so much for the drug part. I lost my job so im kinda just sitting around doing nothin. I try to do activities and what not. I swear they made this drug as a form torturer for war. So i have read many articles and spoen with many people about this whole thing and really hasn't gotten through yet. So any ideas on how play these mind games?

[worried878]

when u r done u will know it..letting go will be easier...it will feel more natural...dont wanna say keep using but as long as u keep giving urself excuses/ie reasons to use, u will continue to use....ur mind is playing games..not the drugs...u r not quite ready to let go..but u r on ur way cos it is bothering u..good luck to u and keep posting cos there is lots of support here

[Cassie415]

Hi,
I know exactly how you're feeling. I have been doing oxycontin for about a year now. My tolerance is up to about 2 80's a day. In the past month, I have been trying to get off them and I just can't get myself to stay away. My first time trying to stop I lasted 6 days. Since then I have "stopped" about five times and have only lasted to day 2. Like you it is the mental part that gets me every time. Before this, I had never had any mental problems, however now when I stop I get horrible anxiety and it terrifies me. In addition I get back depression too. Just recently I started to see an addiction therapist (i've only been once so I don't know if it is working yet. I am also going to my first NA meeting tonight, and hopefully finding a sponsor. HAve you done that? I hear having a sponsor works wonders. As for the mental part, I have used xanax a bit too to combat the anxiety. I know some poeple wouldn't agree with this, but I have never gotten hooked to it. I don't even feel a high on it and never use it to try to feel a high. I simply take one if i'm feeling extremely anxious and it takes the edge off. Maybe you could try that? I know excercise helps a lot, because it gets the brain producing some natural endorphins for you. Also, trying to stay busy helps a lot too and messing around on this website. Hope that helps a little.

[sickNtired421]

As the fiance of an oxy addict i can tell you people who love you are suffering as well. I hope that you have a wonderfull support system whom you can turn to. Unfortunatly my fiance has not hit his "rock bottom" yet though i am not sure how because i feel i have. I reccomend that you continue with councling and consider participating in NA meetings. Find strength where you can whether it is from inside yourself, god, or a loved one.

I wish you the best of luck

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

Listen to Kleen, dude - - she has been places that you dont even know about - - and she made it back..............

[IBKleen]

So you want to get clean but can't get past the mental part?

You are going to need to WANT to do this. Please don't say that counseling didn't work because you need to work it as well.  You need to participate.

You need a plan---whether that is Suboxone or tapering or cold turkey. And yes, you will need aftercare for several reasons and one is to get to the core issues.

Your "trying" this, or "trying" that will just keep you on the roller coaster. Make a decision...choose a date and go forward, whatever it takes.

With the large amounts that you were/are taking I would suggest in-patient treatment. It will help you physically withdraw and will get you well on your way with the mental side. if you can do it, please look into it in your area.

Good luck and I will be praying for you.