I think that's the way to go. Give them to my hubby and put him in charge of the amount. But I know that if I beg him I pretty sure he will cave. He loves me very much and hates to see me suffer or be un happy. I don't think he can pull off the tough love that I so decpartley need. What I wish for is the money to go to a 30 or 60 day detox center.
What you are taking isn't a huge amount by any means. I'm not trying to down play your usage at all. I'm just saying it can be done at home. I'd stock up on vitamin drinks.gatorate,imodium,icy/hot packs. And just do it. The real awful pain is over in around a week,but the mental,not sleeping and energy part can take a bit to come back. You should look into someone to talk to. There is always a reason we become addicted and if we don't confront it,you'll just end up back at square one. There is no magic pill to get through the detox. You have to remember we did this to our bodies,no one can fix it but us. Good luck on whatever you decide to do!
I should add that tapering is very hard for the reason you stated and for the mental anguish that occurs. If they're there...you'll take them. They will call your name. You need a very strong mindset and a desire to quit that goes beyond anything you ever wanted in your life.
Maybe you could taper back for awhile and then just stop. You'll get it over with in a few days and get going on your recovery. You definitely need aftercare, too!
You mentioned the mental part could take more time. I do want it more than anything to get off these evil drugs, I just can seem to muster up the right positive mind set.
And what to you mean by after care.....now I'm really scared :(
Don't be scared! Aftercare or Recovery care is support to keep you clean, simply put. It could be NA or AA, counseling, therapy, outpatient treatment...something that will help you understand your reasons for using and teach you skills for handling cravings, triggers, etc...