Need support while Taporing Percs, Vico, and Soma

[luv2bmomjen]

I posted 9 days ago when I started my weaning.  I was taking 10 10mg Percs, 12 7.5mg Vicoprofen, and 4 325mg Soma a day.  I have weaned so far to 7 Percs, 5 Vicoprofen, and 3 Soma.  It was a hard week but I didn't cheat not once.  Now that I am a bit more functional I really don't know how I lived through the last couple months on this dose.  I am proud but really want to cut the Vicoprofen completely all at once.  Problem is I have a colonoscopy tommorrow and they won't let me.  So I guess I wait for another few days.  
I just really really need support from this forum.  I have nobody else to talk to and I am scared, alone, and on edge to say the least.  How did i ever get here?  How could I have done this to my kids and my husband?  This is NOT me.  I want ME back.  Are there any other mom's out there?  Chronic pain is just so hard.  

[luv2bmomjen]

Feeling alone in this today.  Not sure what my doc will have me do next to taper and scared but I am down to ONE vicoprofen a day.  I will cut them completely soon.  Maybe a couple days.  Today was not great.  Took an extra Soma cause I am sick and my neck and jaw are so tight and stiff and in pain.  
Anyone still checking this posting?

[luv2bmomjen]

Well my colonoscopy went well.  Found nothing!  I feel greaful.  I was talked to horribly by two nurses for my med use and by another patient.  Went into it crying.  I have come down to 13 pills from 26 in 9 days and they have NO RIGHT.  It send me running back to the pills but I stopped myself.  They gave me fentenol and something like valium the most they could give me and it did  NOTHING.  I walked out of there 10minute after the proceedure was done like nothing had happened.  I can't believe my body is THAT addicted and tolorant.  Now toay I am back to withdrawls just from that little extra they gave me.  I am mad, upset, feel like all I have done was pointless.  My husband tells me I am doing good when I tell him I am cutting more pills but he doesn't understand my bad mood, bad attitude about life and I can tell he just wants his wife back.  The wife that was happy on the pills.  The other wife I don't even know where she is or if she will ever come back!

[nicky667]

You are deffinatly not alone, I just found this site tonight, I have just realized Im not alone in this either, Im 33 years old I have four children, I have been addicted to oxys for about 6 to 8 months, I started taking them for pain, I never dreamed this would happen to me, now here I am, Im just trying to figure out how to get of these pills with minimul withdrawl, I understand how you feel when you say the thought of going through it scares the hell out of you, I feel exactly the same way, I hope your tapering goes well, its also what I am doing, I have gone frome taking 5 oxys a day to 2 and a half to sometimes 3 a day, im really trying to stay with 2 and a half its just so hard, I suffer from anxiety so the slightest withdrawl sets of my anxiety, but all we can do is try.

[taperme]

Sounds like you are determined and can follow your taper...that's great. Does your husband know, and can he be supportive of you? Good luck tomorrow...check in and let us know how it goes.

[luv2bmomjen]

Thanks ladies.  Yes I dole them out.  I have a safe (I have three young ones) that I put what I can have for the next day into my perscription bottle and I am not allowed to open the safe again till I fill it the next day.  I stick to that no matter what and I have 400+ pills up there so I know I am strong enough to taper.  The thought of bad withdrawl from running out early scares the hell out of me.  
I will check in after my procedure tommorrow!

[micheleTX]

okay :)  just wondered.  My husband was also taking vicoprofen at one time because of the high tylenol content.  Good luck to you with the colonoscopy, and if you feel like it, post after you have it.  I would like to know how you are doing...
Michele

[taperme]

My 2 biggest recommendations if you are going to taper, is to write out a plan. Putting it in writing makes it harder to not go according to your plan. And, something I read on here was to put your pills into envelopes marked for each day. Either dole them out to yourself, or if you don't trust yourself let your husband dole then out to you. That is great that you are working with your doc....that is a terrific first step. Keep asking questions and posting.

[luv2bmomjen]

Thanks to all of you.   I was feeling so very alone in all of this.  Today is hard because I am doing the prep for tommorrow and the meds are just going right through me so I am getting a good idea of no meds.  
To answer the question I was put in Vicoprofen because my tylonol was getting too high for my comfort.  Then I fell and crushed two disks in my back last November and since i was allready taking 10 vico they had to give me the Percs to help with break through pain.  Well that just became a max dose soon as well.  At the time I just kept telling myself the doctors would not give it to me unless it was OK.  Now I look back and wonder why I am alive.  
My weaning plan is to be off the vicoprofen by the end of the month but I hope for much much sooner.  Then I will start weaning down from the 7 Percs.  Not sure how my doc wants me to do it yet.  I have weaned off Percs before though.  I used Tramadol last time and I didn't have much problem getting off the Tramadol.  At least not that I remember.  So I may try a time release tramadol to cut the Percs if they let me.  Lesser of the two evils I guess.  
I know I have a long long way to go and i have bearly touched the surface of what I need to do but at least I took it upon myself to do it and to make the doc wean me.  Now I just have to do the work and hope it doesn't hurt my kids or husband too much.  It is a hard process.  Then when I am off I will hit the acupuncture, etc to keep out of pain.  My pain has not been much worse you are right there.  

[oompah54]

Sounds like you are very committed to your tapering.  Congratulations on staying the course.  

It is difficult to deal with chronic pain.  I've had a triple lumbar fusion and double cervical fusion of the spine.  Believe it or not . . . once I went through detox , the pain was not quite so bad.  The pain pills actually cause rebound pain that was worse than the original pain.  So for now I am taking Motrin and greasing up with Ben Gay and wearing
Icy Hot patches.  I realize I will never be pain free but its still way better than being tied to a pill bottle.  

As a wife and mother, we always seem to put our family first.  We've got to take care of ourselves in order to take care of them.  Don't worry about how you got here . . . be pround that you recognized a problem and you can make changes to make it right.

I wish you peace and strength . .  

[micheleTX]

You are definitely not alone here.  I am not a Mom, not by choice because I would be if I had the chance, but I am a woman and can understand trying to get off pain pills.  Why are you taking Percocet and vicoprofen at the same time, if I may ask?  That's a double whammy of opiates.  Just curious.  Listen, I've heard colonoscopy is not that big of a deal, you won't feel a thing.  Known many people who have had one, my previous husband one of them.  He didn't even remember it.  Don't feel alone though, okay?  We are here to talk with, tell you that yes chronic pain is a bit=- but once you get yourself clean, you will be surprised how the body takes care of the pain.  Lots of people think they cant live without meds because of pain, but alot of us know that is not true.  We have everything we need in us naturally to deal with pain.  Anyway, good luck with your colonoscopy!  I will be praying for you  :)

[taperme]

I'm a mom here with chronic pain/fibromyalgia. It can be done...you've come to the right place for support. Do you have a plan for your taper? Have you told your husband? Let us know what your plan is and there are lots of us who can help.