Congrats! 1 year is a huge accomplishment!
WOW!!!! Seriously a year already? I remember when you came to the forum! Your id really stood out. I REALLY love seeing positive, uplifting ids, so it made an impression.
You truly are an inspiration to so many here. You're so wise, so caring and helpful. Congrats to reaching such a HUGE milestone. You should be SO proud of yourself. That's truly incredible!
Do something wonderful to celebrate!
XOXO
Congrats on your clean time!
Doesn't it feel good to be free of the chain that was around our neck?
Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you... I am so glad you penned a few lines on the journey that brought you here cause many don't know the depths of hell you crawled out of. Sure it's up to the addict and dependent person to do the work,but you have shown us it's the love, support and encouragement that can make the difference between making it to the otherside or failing. I've never seen anyone on here (except NG) who takes the time to google many issues others have and find the solution. These post many of us glance over cause they are so complicated, you find the help needed. I always thought you should be a writer, but changed my mind. You'd make a GREAT addiction specialist. Thanks Connie for all you are.....PS....Weavers poem made me all teary first thing in the morning!!!! THANKS WEAV!!!
"Honey.....I'M HOME>>>>>>>>>!!" LOL Hey MedHelp...I just got home and had not been online all day. Surprise, surprise, surprise, huh?????
Buddy, you're a "peach" for posting this. What can I say? I am TOTALLY shocked and in awe of ALL of you. You guys will NEVER know...just how deeply you have touched my heart. What a GREAT bedtime surprise...and I even logged on late enough to have my ticker/tracker roll over so is TRULY is now 365 DAYS for MOI....how cool is that? Yipee...kiyaaaa!!
I was thinking today....reflecting back over this last year....coming from a bedridden state and feeling like I had been in a "medical tomb" for 4 very long years....just how different life truly is now. My comeback is quite slow compared to most of you...and I'm must admit I'm still trying to live my life with pretty much constant pain....but without pain pills. Dana taught me that line. And so it continues....looking forward to further change ahead.
This morning as I thought back to where I was and what I was doing 365 days ago....I shuddered to remember. On June 21, 2012, I took an ambulance ride to the ER. I laid in a room for 3 LONG hours....while they did ZILCH...absolutely nothing for me. I was a screaming mimee! I had dropped from 30 Lortab 10's to what I thought was a taper (ha) down to 10 pills by June 21st and I had a breathing scare. I had been popping 2 Lortabs in my mouth every 2 or 3 hrs and the hours I wasn't popping them, I was shoving Prozac and Gabapentin in my mouth. I was majorly OD'd on a lot of meds by the time I hit the ER. I was the biggest "B" I have EVER been in my life. I was NUTS....CRAZY, I tell ya. I was SCREAMING at the top of my lungs at EVERYONE in that hospital. Seems like another lifetime ago...another woman, really.
Your words, your songs, your perception of me....gives me "love bumps" and a lump in my throat. I don't see myself the way others see me....and if I have in any small way helped any of you....then I give the glory to God....not myself.
Who would ever believe that you could surround yourself with love and support literally from around the world....and come to love other addicts the way I love all of you. I learn from each of you.
My heart is FULL of gratefulness.....unspeakable joy.....
Thank you seems insufficient......you have touched me...I have grown~
I love you all......
Connie (Ms. Kansas) lol
congratulations connie. you are a testimony of GOD'S mercy and grace.
the chains and bondage of addiction have been broken.
you are a voice of knowledge and reason.
thank you for sticking around and helping out.
we appreciate you.
continued blessings, love and peace,
debbie
With the gold of sunshine
And my tunes were played
On a harp unstrung
Would you hear my voice
Come through the music?
Would you hold it near
As if it were your own?
There is a road, no simple highway
Between the dawn and dark of night
And if you go, no one may follow
That path is for your steps alone.
Ripple in still water
Where ther is no pebble tossed
Nor wind to blow
It's a hand-me-down
The thoughts are broken
Perhaps they're better left unsung
I don't know, don't really care
Let there be songs, to fill the air.
Ripple in still water
Where there is no pebble tossed
Nor wind to blow
You who chose to lead must follow
But if you fall, you fall alone
If you should stand, then who's to guide you?
If I knew the way
I would take you home.
-the Gtateful Dead, "ripple"
Thanks for everything Connie, and congratulations!!!
You rock!!!