Soooo many triggers today!

[amaria]

This move is wearing me sooooo down. We were supposed to pull out. We need one more full day of loading!ugh! I am sooo tired. I thought about the energy I used to get from the percocet throught the day! My neighbor even has vicodin, I DIDN'T touch anything but a 5 hr. Energy. Didn't give into the temptation. I'm stronger than that. Man, I am beat. What I would give to be home and done! Hope u all are having another successful day! :)

[amaria]

Oh lord give me strength. I am beyond exhausted. Got more loading to do. Want to collapse!

[amaria]

I cant tell you guys enough right now how much it means to me to know yall are cheering me on. I wanna collapse, gotta keep going. I love u all.

[minn66]

Hi rain, I am doing a benzo taper so I know exactly where you're coming from. Thank you for your kind words :)

Amaria, I know there's a lot to do, which in some ways is probably a good thing, but try not to wear yourself out!

[gunn73]

change s always stressful but at the same time enthusiastic ...... and u make me proud for what u ve accomplished girl against the odds u fought.
god bless
gunnu

[pleasehelppregnant]

Stay strong you can do it.think about all the hell you went through the first week. Im going on 24 days and it seems to get better by the day. Hang in there have faith in the man above he will make you stronger and it well worth all of it

[rainnow]

Minn66, I was rain4lafleur.  Now I am rainnow.  I lost my log in info on my old name.  I am coming off benzo's and I guess it is affecting my memory...really.  Thank you for your kindness.  
Your comment to the above poster is , as usual, kind and common-sensical.  I moved 3 times in one year post divorce.  It is distressing.

[Elmijack15]

You are a true inspiration to anyone going thru this ordeal. Your mindset is amazing! Thanks for all your encouraging words and hope this move is over soon! Hugs!!

[minn66]

Amaria, I just want you to know how much I admire you. Moving in and of itself is NOT fun. Yet here you are, going through it and then you resisted temptation too! Lol, after moving twice in one year after my divorce over 11 years ago, I swore I would never move again unless I hit the lotto and could pay someone to do all the work for me! I do hope you can get some rest soon and enjoy your new home. Take care, hun :)

[IwillDoThis]

Hey girl - just wanted to throw some support your way.  I just took my first real vacation trip this past weekend with LOTS OF WALKING which always gives me so much fear so I can only imagine how you must be feeling in the midst of a move.  But I did great and you will too!

Remember to take time to relax for a few and sit down when you need to, take a deep breath when you feel like you want to tape someone up in a box and drop kick them.........it will be over soon.

Big hugs to you!

[amaria]

Thank you all. I have been in counseling since the week I put down the oxy. And I have church. I am doing exactly that, facing the feelings and dealing with them and moving forward. I've always been the person that acts like all is well, shoving feelings down one after another since childhood. Because I dont want reaching to a pill, etc. to no longer be a "coping skill". Doesn't work.lol. Thank u all again. It was nice to sit down and see u all line up for me. Today is a new day, I did get some sleep. I wish this move was done     . I'm gonna be pushing through another loooong day. But what I can't do, I must. :)

[dominosarah]

Try not to overwhelm yourself right now.  When you are feeling stressed take yourself out of the equation for a minute or 2, take some deep breaths and gather your thoughts.  Reenergize your brain with healthy thoughts instead of the ones you had.  Those pills didnt give you anything but a slow death.  Hopefully you got a good nights sleep and will feel better in the morning~~sara

[Pat1956100]

Be so proud of yourself that you stayed strong.  You are doing so well and I admire you.

[gnarly_1]

HI there will always be stressors  in life a triggers is more like finding a stash of pills or the sight of someone using something where the brain goes strait to using or wanting to as for stressors life is full of them like you moving or a fight with a spouse .....it is threw aftercare that you will learn how to deal with both triggers as well as stressors so get plugged in after you move DONT try and go this alone it rarely works we need support groups or consoling to get past the ruff spots in life good luck with your move I wish you well but plug in and learn new ways to deal with stress other then popping a pill and Kudos today for not using..............Gnarly  

[fpvfembacktobreakfree]

hey huni sorry ya having bad day with triggers  me too we r being tested n we r passing stay strong my friend mwah aj

[littlebit667]

change is always stressful.  I hope you are able to get some rest and give your "triggered" brain a chance to go easy on you!