On Day 4

[reviewer]

Hi everyone.  I am on day 4, woke up feeling ok had alittle energy did accomplish some things around the house and took care of my grandchildren.  Still just dealing with this depression and the situation with my daughter and my grandkids doesnt help.  As I stated in one post I had major surgery back in dec and was in the hospital almost a month and then had complications and was sick for 5 months till I had another surgery May 26th.  I was in the hospital a 12 days.  One week after getting out of the hospital my daughter says she doesnt want her children anymore and she cant take care of them and to come and get them, they are 1 year old and 2 1/2.  I have had them ever since.  I was really using the pain pills for pain at first but then it was to cover the depression and feeling overwhelmed with having these children 24/7.  It has been difficult on my marriage as well.  My husband hasnt dealt well with my  ER visits for pain meds and the dr visits and then add the financial aspect and then add two toddlers to the mix it is really difficult.  I can not do this alone.  God is going to have to show me a way out of this.  I love my grandkids but I dont know if I am well enough to take care of them and the thought of them going to foster care scares the hell out of me.   I have been praying all morning and asking God to show me the way and to bring me out of this darkness.  I know pills are not the way.

[dominosarah]

That sounds good.  Let us know how you are doing~~

[reviewer]

I am checking with my insurance company to see who they will cover so I can go see someone.

[dominosarah]

I would go in and see the doctor.  There are some good AD meds that are non narcotic.  Many people have to do this for awhile after they come off pills.  Have you thought about talking with someone?

[vicki595]

No, pills are never the way although I thought they were for a very long time,myself...

It sounds like you've lost some control over your life. Are you still in pain? Who is nearby to give you a hand?  Try to gather up and pool some resources. Reach out as you have here.

Opiates are often used for depression as a self medication but honestly it doesn't help in the long run and really damages your system.  Have you spoken with your doctor? Maybe you can try an antidepressant as you begin to taper the meds?

Make some phonecalls!!