No, pills are never the way although I thought they were for a very long time,myself...
It sounds like you've lost some control over your life. Are you still in pain? Who is nearby to give you a hand? Try to gather up and pool some resources. Reach out as you have here.
Opiates are often used for depression as a self medication but honestly it doesn't help in the long run and really damages your system. Have you spoken with your doctor? Maybe you can try an antidepressant as you begin to taper the meds?
Make some phonecalls!!
I would go in and see the doctor. There are some good AD meds that are non narcotic. Many people have to do this for awhile after they come off pills. Have you thought about talking with someone?
I am checking with my insurance company to see who they will cover so I can go see someone.
That sounds good. Let us know how you are doing~~