trying

[cant_keep_falling]

I am fricken tryin and thinkin positive isn't helping a whole lot! I really don't think I can just sit home n do this all nite

[cant_keep_falling]

Thank you all so very much, your words have helped tremendously!!

[Innerstrength67]

I agree with Luckytwice. I too feel incredible guilt for what I have done but this is counterproductive for our healing. What's done is done. We must be gentle with ourselves. We did bad things, we are not bad people.

[donewitis]

Excellent advice!

[Luckytwice]

You should also be taking  a multivitamin with b complex, especially b6, vitamin c 1000mg at least,  and some amino acid supplements to help boost   neurotransmitter levels serotonin and dopamine,  which will help with your mood and anxiety and help you cope better.

[Luckytwice]

It;s 30% physical, and 66% psychological. Instead of being afraid, be determined. Don't let your mind play with you. You are in control of it, not the other way around.  Because of the chemical imbalance caused by the opiates,  your thought process isn't working normally, so you have to keep telling yourself how you want to feel, and not let your mind dictate how you feel.
What may help you is looking up how neurotransmitters such as dopamine and serotonin effect how thoughts are processed. Not only will it keep you preoccupied, but it will help you understand whats going on in your mind and give you a better understanding of what we mean by "Mind games". It's kind of like having to run on manual for a while, instead of automatic.

[cant_keep_falling]

Oh yeah I take resposibility for my part...I screwed up bad. And that's part of what's driving me nutty, between coming off it AND knowing what I did...its killing me. I'm alone with this because of MY choices and I'm effing scared.

[Luckytwice]

what in particular are you finding difficulties with?  Restlessness/anxiety? insomnia?  You can try going for a walk,  exercise helps. A hot bath before bed will help the restless leg thing.  It also helps to find something to keep your mind focused on instead of how you are feeling.

[donewitis]

accepting "being ok not being ok for awhile"..(gnarly's quote)

[donewitis]

Who's asking you to think positive..you are in w/d... What we do ask is that you be ok not  being of for awhile. that's it. Many of us can blame Dr.'s but..it doesn't help. We have to take some responsibility. If you really want to be clean then you can do this.
I feel your pain..only recently it was mine.