Advice/support please?

[taperme]

So, I've been tapering for about 2 1/2 weeks from 10 norco/day am down to 3. Feeling pretty lousy with headaches daily, insomnia, and anxiety. My plan is to "jump" or go ct on Sunday. If I could do it yesterday and get it over with already I would, but my husband is going out of town tomorrow and it is just me and the kids for the rest of the week. I'm feeling pretty useless right now, no concentration whatsoever. I went this morning to work in one of my girls' class rooms and it was pretty bad. I've been pretty much vegging in front of the tv watching Tivo'd shows all weekend and am sick of myself. I did manage to take one daughter on a promised "date", go to a school carnival, have a date with hubby and give him a few hours off yesterday afternoon but other than that, totally useless. I am stressing about the rest of the week while he is gone. Very depressed to have let myself get to this point. Although every pill I've taken has been prescribed and I haven't abused, I am definitely dependant/addicted and so upset/depressed about getting to this point. Right now I am taking 1 norco 3 times a day. I was planning to cut back by 1/4 pill every other day this week and then quit on Sunday. I realized that I have an obligation on Sunday that I can't get out of so I am wondering how bad of shape I will be in on Sunday? Should I take my last pill Sunday AM to get me through? Or just tough it out. At this point, will cutting back by 1/2 to 3/4 pill per day make any difference in how I feel when I stop? Or should I just level out at 3/day at this point and quit at this level on Sunday, since my kids will be depending on me for the rest of the week? Tapering is harder than I thought it would be. Any advice/words of wisdom would be much appreciated. Thanks!

[taperme]

Thanks Bob. I'm going to see if I can do it now (did I just type that?). My new plan is to try to take nothing else today. I do have some help today with my girls. Biggest issue is that I am committed to working in the Kindergarten class room tomorrow from 9-noon. And unfortunately I have to be nice while doing it. :)
I will see how I am in the morning tomorrow...worse comes to worse I will take one more pill to get me through 25 screaming kids and an art project. If I have truly gone through the worst of it at this point then I am done!! Go me...

[jstntime]

Forgot to add ......yes, jumping now is better!!!!  Yes you will be able to take care of kids.  Can you get help with them if you really think you need it just in case???

24 hours from your last pill gives you your first clean day!!!!!

Rooting for team TAPERME!!!!

bob

[jstntime]

Based on my detox experiences, you should be feeling a bit better by the time he gets back then back into feeling crappy when you jump.  

I do NOT think your last jump will get much worse than you have experienced thus far. Your taper wasn't a screw-up, just a little quick. You will still benefit from jumping from 3 instead of 10 which will help.  If you are too worried about jumping from 3, then take 2/day for a week, then 1/day for a week and then jump from there.

You are making a life saving decision to stop.  Several days discomfort for a lifetime of liberty is worth every symptom!!!!

Hang in there, let us know when you jump!!!!!

bob

[taperme]

Really? I will feel better? You don't think that I will feel worse first, better second? Because seriously if people don't think I will get worse first...if tapering so quickly has put me through the worst of the withdrawals, I can handle this. The thing I am worried about is going ct today since I'm home alone with my daughters for the rest of the week. Will I be able to take care of them on my own at this point if I stop today? I've only taken 1 this morning...if I take nothing else today will today count or do I start tomorrow anyway? How does that work? Is it 24- hours from last pill or ??

[Frivolousz21]

Being Obsessed is so hard.

if you quit right now..by Sunday you will feel better..not great...but much better.

[taperme]

So...you don't think dropping the last 3 will be much worse than what I've been feeling already? And I pretty much screwed up as far as tapering goes it looks like. I think I am a little nervous about making the final jump with my husband out of town. Will try to wait for him to get back and....jump!

[jstntime]

Hey there,

You've made a 70% reduction over 10 days.  A proper taper would have reduced by only 20-30% in those 10 days.

Therefore you are feeling much of the wd already.  You have a few choices.  You can stay at 3 per day until you feel better then reduce again or you can flush and jump.  

Tapers are obssessive.  Clock watching, pill counting , counting down the days etc.  The whole point of a taper is to make wd more tolerable.  Your speedy reduction has eliminated this prime reason for beginning one.  Seriously, the wd won't be much worse than it is now if you jump and it will be over much sooner, minus the obssessiveness.

If you do flush and jump, be sure to come back and tell us so we can congratulate you.....we LOVE a good flushing story.  It shows you are ready.

Goodluck and Godspeed,

bob

[itsabouttime209]

Stay determined!  The battle is only half won.  You can do it!!!!  Just try your best to stay busy.

[taperme]

I don't know if I can do this. So sick of clock watching, pill counting etc. It is only Monday and I know it is going to be such a long week. What do I do?