Sanity Restoration

[jenny8575309]

I came to NA, hopeless and miserable.  I couldn’t seem to stop driking/using for very long, and for the past 6 months, my family never got a sober day out of me.   I didn’t know if I believed in God or not really, and I sure didn’t believe that He could help me.  I made all kinds of excuses for my lack of faith.  When I came to the fellowship.  I saw people talk about their God and how He was working in their life.  It didn’t seem to be just something they were saying.  A lot of them had this light inside of them that shone in their eyes and their smile.   I said to myself, “what the heck, it’s worth a try”  I wanted what they had, so I prayed every morning, on my knees..  I meditated after and told God that I was seeking Him.  I started listening to Christian music, because I wanted to.  I noticed that when I asked God to help me stop doing the wrong thing, He did.  I asked Him to help me stop flirting with this married guy at work.. I asked Him to help me stop gossiping about this girl at work, that it turns out I was jealous of.  I took these things as evidence that He is.  Eveything started to fall into place.  I began to listen to my conscience more.  Not using became easier.  I started making friends.  I started treating my family better, and handling my affairs better.  These things became evidence to me, my faith grew.  I never wanted to do the right thing before, like I do now.  Real Freedom comes from doing what you ought to do, when you want to do it.  I’m HAPPY today.  I think logically.  I can choose not to over react to something.  I can be honest today.  In the past my f’d up thought controlled my emotions, and I used, and I didn’t know why.  Today I don’t want to use.  I know what will happen if I do.  When I don’t feel right about something, I can talk it out.  I can pray about it. I’m not a prisoner of my misery any longer.  God is restoring me to sanity.

[odaat1]

What a great testimony..thank you!

[casmitty85]

So true! He listens to us, we're his precious babies. As I'm raising a daughter now (10mts) I'm realizing how my relationship with our Father is just like me and my daughter's. She cries when she's grieved, she clings to me when she wants to be held and I do all I can for her no matter what. Thanks for sharing your testimony!

[dominosarah]

Very nice post.  Thank you for the words of encouragement.  Congrats on breaking free!!!!

sara

[Korley]

You are so right on! God can and will restore us to sanity. He has faith in us and never gives up on us, it is we who give up on ourselves. Congrats to you, sobriety is such an amazing journey! The best thing that A.A brought me is my relationship back w/ God. I am really happy for you!

[wannabefree330]

Great post!  Congrats on finding the serenity we all so deserve.

[desperate1111]

good luck to you. i firmly belive in prayer. my sister was an alcoholic, everyone prayed and prayed for her. the booze got so bitter she couldn't swallow it.

[lifesaride]

congrats on yur sanity.sobiety and your new life.