I'm so nervous

[lynnalb15]

I have 2 more months until I go into detox then me and my daughter are off to Flossie Lewis recovery center. Has anyone ever been or heard of it there.  I'm nervous just thinking about it. I'm so happy ill have her with me. But the week or two in detox will kill me being without her. I've never been with out my baby. Ugh. I know it's for the best. Anyone have any advice. I need someone to talk to I guess.

[dominosarah]

Lynn, try not to get to worked up about this.  This is a good thing for you.  You have waited for a long time to get your life back and the time is coming.  I am so excited for you.  You are such a wonderful lady and deserve to finally find yourself and see what we see.

[lynnalb15]

Thank u everyone. That helped a lot.

[VICourageous]

Hi I went to one in the mts. Of course I live in idaho now I was from that area. I was sooo sick in there that I did not know how much I did take in. It was the one candle on the cake that got me going and still learning alot.
I tried for 10 yrs crying for help could not do it at home...I was lucky since I did get sponsered a bit with the $$$$$. So yes it is a good thing too. They do want you to only focus on your self. That was hard for me since I have cared and taken care of others all my life. I learned the tools to use, the boundries to put up ect. Still in recovery and I call and let them know how it is going. I found some new buds that I still call today. This was back in Sept and my recovery is a on going process. I hope you get the best of it.
God Bless you on this mission..
vickie

[Clarityrocks]

Wow, sorry for all the typos. It has been a loooong day!

[Clarityrocks]

Hi! I have not heard of it, sorry:( How how fantastic that you get to bring our daughter! As far as leaving her to go to detox, I gotta say, just to keep reminding yourself that you are going to give her the best version of her mommy back. I went to inpatient, and I had never been away from my 3 kiddos, 14, 5, and barely 2 when I went, and while it was hard to be without them, it gave me the time to work on me, without the distractions and responsibilities of daily life. I didn't have to worry about their day to day needs, (thanks to my wonderful hub and our families, I knew they were well taken care of) like I did every other day of thier lives, eventually taking more and more pills to do so (not even well, in hindsight). I came home renewed, with a whole new life, and tools to be a better mother than even before I started using, largely because I am so grateful to be home with them, when I was thisclose to losing everything. I don't know if this helps at all, but to be away for a very short period to give your child a sober, healthy mom for the rest of their life, it is really a minuscule price to pay. I wish you all the luck in the world, it really is amazing to be clean, and not have your happiness depend on whether or not you have enough drugs.
Allison

[OpenMind24hours]

Hi Lynn,
Try and stay in the now. "Today is the tomorrow we worried about yesterday."  All we really have is today, right this moment. It's normal to worry about the future, but if you think about it, nothing has actually effected our breathing yet. Everything will work out. I've quoted this one on here before: Mark Twain wrote "I'm an old man who's seen lots of trouble, most of which never happened". When I worry, which I do, that pops into my mind.

When you think about it, "recovery center". That's a positive. It's the direct opposite of "dope house". It's a very good thing. You're heading to a place where you're going to develop a solid recovery foundation for the rest of your life. That's a fantastic thing. I never went to one, but I was seriously thinking about it this last time I was using all my drugs all of the time. My daughter has gone to 3 treatment centers and two 3/4 houses to beat crack. At the last treatment center "she found God" she said. I knew something was different that last time.  And she's been clean for 9 years now. I can't begin to express my gratitude that those centers are there for us, and especially for our children. I don't know what I'd do without my daughter. Those centers ARE a God thing as far as I'm concerned. And you're so blessed to be going to one.

Enjoy your Friday night! Tomorrow's another day.