Wish me luck

[TooThoughtfulDan]

I had been totally clean from Norco 10/325 4x  about thee weeks now when the pain in my back started to really overwhelm me.  I read and reread Bulbous comments to me about recovery and the potential to sef medicate myself with BS.  I have spent years in AA meetings learning about, "cunning, baffling, and powerful.". So yeah, I have taken the Norco as prescribed for the last two days.  Actually much less, one or two at least six hours apart has allowed me to continue my swimming, and hold up my part of the housework-I am a HS teacher on summer break.  I wanted to report back to the Forum, because I don't want to just jettison that because for today I am using the Norco as prescribed.  Something very interesting happened to me when I took the first pill the other day.  When I felt the uphoria I became a little frightened, and later in the day when I was a little zoned out, I was angry at myself and the pills.  When I am disassociated somewhat from the pain, the swelling in my back eases and six hours later I find I do not need the pill, and when I do not need them I leave them alone.  I have a very addictive background if you have read my story, so yes I am taking a great risk.  Hopefully today when I talk to the spine surgeon,  he can outline some conservative approaches.  I have read many of the posts here on Medhelp about surgery and people's experiences, so when we discuss my MRI today, I hope to have some questions answered, and not be railroaded into something.
I just wanted to report in and stay a part of the group.  I am still very much an addict and an alcoholic (a friend at a meeting told me to always remember that it is alcoholism, not alcoholwasm )

Sincerely, Dan

[killmypain]

I'm with gnarly on this one.... I'm only 10 days clean but I know I can never use again.... no matter what. Maybe a hot bath, I use those doans heating pads when my back is in pain.... I hurt my back and wait tables for a living so I have to find ways to deal with the pain... I'm allergic but I hear that ben gay, icy hot and whats that other stuff..... green writing on a white bottle.... crap... anyway try anything and everything else you possibly can think of and if you need to, take a day off. swimming usually helps too.... also, have you seen a chiropractor? my addictive personality lead me into skydiving at one point in my life and after a few hundred of them, I got a whip lash injury and couldn't move my neck for a few weeks.... I gave in and started seeing a chiropractor and within 2 weeks (3X a week) I almost had full mobility again... I don't want to rain on your parade and for sure, you have a good reason to use these pills..... I just know that I'm an addict and you're playing with fire....

[gnarly_1]

Hey dude I to suffer with back pain I take 800mg ibuprofine it dosent cure it but takes the edge off it your playing with fire messing around with the norco again its inda like liting a stick of dynamite and cutting off the fuse b/4 it goes off.....sooner or later your going to run out of fuse I have been clean from narcotics for 641 days and wouldent think of taking one no mater how bad it hurt think this one out your way to earlly into sobrity to be even thinking about this not trying to dis on you just seen to many try and fail at what your doing stop wile your ahead addictions cunning baffling and powerful and we are poerless over it lose site of that and you will loss the war good luck and God bless......Gnarly