Same person new thread, recovery......

[wantnormalagain]

I posted a new thread so th eold one would go archives, I am doing okay today, it was a hard morning but did what had to be done, did my chores, Grandma is comming, i am excited to see her now that i am clean, well recovering, i havent used in i think almost 2 weeks i lost track of time, but i still struggle some days over the last while, i think stress was a trigger, i have turned to food as a substitute, lol.. well mom hime baked goods anyways, and cookies. I know prob the the healthiest but better than what i was doing, I appreciate all the help and advise im gonna do this, i see the shrink Tuesday i will go through everything with her

[gutsnglitter]

well you sound like you defiantly have it under control so good for you!

[cleaninitup]

  :)

[wantnormalagain]

Hi, I am pulling for myself also..lol..(learned what that was) some days are hard some i don't even think about them, i try to keep myself busy from the time i wake till i go to sleep which is still early, same as bed is still earlier than normal, but if that will be my biggest problem than i will live with it. I come here as often as possible i find that the site really does help,I know i don't hear from some people as much as i used to but i figure they are or will be there if things ever get hairy for me, or i need a slap or wake up call,,lol,,I am glad i can help someone but i haven't been clean that long either, i can only post what you all have told me, and what i feel or went through, and still going through with the after care, and what she says or my reg shrink says that may help someone. I really appreciate all the support this site has given me, and i feel that without this site i don't know if i would have been successful or not, there was some drama, but believe it or not it made me a little stronger i think even though i had that 1 relapse at the beginning, and bought the one that mom got once after the WD's. I can't beleive there were so many people that talked me through it all, and gave me advice like the thomas recipe, the amino acids recipe, talked about fluids and foods, talked me through a couple of rough days during and after, The one thing i tell people is listen to those on here, they are great people and really want to help others they don't even know such as yourself. I did read back a bit, i can see i have more self esteem it seems, i know i am a little more confident when it comes to regular things in life, like i sat down with Christine and had a conversation, without wanting to use, or even talking about it, or calling her names, and to answer the question no we have decided to just be friends and i need to get past what happened for Stephen's sake, it wasn't his fault, and his dad doesn't bother at all with him, I am all he knows, so I need to do what i can to be there for him. I follow my own advice, I CAN do this, i have it written on my bathroom mirror and on a post it in the truck, and in the stables. I am determined not to let a little evil pill get the better of me, no matter what. Well gotta go eat supper, will check in later hope everyone is having a great night, we CAN do this, EVERYONE, and if you do slip it's just a hiccup, that can be dealt with and gone, but avoid areas, social situations, friends that may cause a hiccup

[wantnormalagain]

Hi
  Ya the crying is crazy, its the emotions, they are all screwed up, or mine were anyways, and then sometimes people will add to the roller coster of emotions, but you CAN do it, a new life is scary, for everyone, giving up everything you know and everyone is hard but I think it will help your recovery but thats just my opinion. I have noticed that once i changed my routines a bit things seemed easier, and kept myself busy i didnt think about them as often, dont get me wrong sometimes i get it in my head i want one in the worst way, and i have to work out, or job, or do something that gives me no time to think about it and it's still hard sometimes, i just refuse to give in, you CAN do it, is what i say to myself also. I am happy for you and hope all works out well for you, just keep a positive attitude,

[gutsnglitter]

well i wouldnt say im feeling better physically but emotionally i feel like a new improved person, its only been just almost 3 days, i feel like death but im just happy, i just have this happy feeling, even though i cried about 8 times today i still feel good lol.
it will be hard starting life with out drugs but i know it will be alot more easier in a new place.
and you sound like you are doing so good and congratulations to you too !

[cleaninitup]

you have come so far wantnormalagain-you should reread some of earlier posts and see how much you have changed over the past few weeks. You are inspiration to alot of people and we are all still pulling for you and taking inspiration from you.Thank you for keeping up on the postings and sharing your journey with us. H