So far it's goin pretty good

[abritt121222]

I know I was goin at this ct from oxy for two days and ppl were great help then and I'm sure everyone here is going to be great and get me thru this again but after yesterday I just couldn't take the wihdrawals that bad right now because my father and I have a fe jobs to do in the next few weeks and yesterday I was worthless and just couldn't take sitting around watching my dad work his butt offf whle I didn't do much if anything not just cause I felt bad but also because my dad has parkansins and a few other problems that came with being a construction worker for over 30 years so I had enough and yesterday got my whole family and my wonderful girlfriend and sat down and told them EVERYTHING and my mother and I went to our doc which is also a close family friend and hates to see menlike this and said he will do everything in his power to help and I felt so much better telling everything I didn't know what to expect but I knew everyone was going to be beside menthri this because there is no doubt they all love me more than the world but neways we went to our doc and he said yes the taper is the beathing to do and I knew that but have never been able to do it on my own while trying to get better withoubeveryone knowing which was the dumbes thing ever even tho I did do it and was clean for two months until I got back on pills except this time I decided it would b so much easier on me if everyone knew what was up and I was right because now I have so much support from everyone including all of y'all on here and even tho it's early in the process I feel so much better not holding anything back from anyone and just putting it all on the table so I am gonna do a taper from just a small amout of 3 percs a day for a week to two and a half till I'm at nothing I dis t want to taper from a higher Dose like some ppl because I want to feel some withdrawals just to remind myself every day how bad this is I know some of you will disagree and say just go ct but I feel this is the best way for me and this is how I'm going to do it. Right now I feel great I mean yes I am having very minor wds bout an hour or so before I take my next med but nothing very bad and nothing that is gongto make me go nuts again this is the beat I have ever felt mentally about this whole thing and this is why I know this is it and this will be the last time. Thank you everyone for all the support so far and for all of it that is still to come oh and I forgot to say I am not the one with the pols either my mother has the pills and I have no way to get to them cause they r in my dada huge fun safe because I know I could not do this alone. Well I hope everyone is having a great day and is getting clean to

[dominosarah]

Keep up that positive attitude.  We are right behind you cheering you on........sara

[abritt121222]

Yup I can do ct I have done it before but this way let's me be all there to help my dad which is something I have to do and like I said on the other one the first sign of me a
slipping up or anything my papers for detox are already signed in my soca hand because I fille out all the paper and promised my whole family ifthis don't do it I'm going but I'm not going to have to go because I KNOW in my heart this is gonna work

[dominosarah]

You have to do what is right for you and i think you are comfortable with this way so that is all that matters.  Some can go ct and some cant.  Doesnt make either one right or wrong.  You stay in your recovery cuz YOU are the one that matters here....sara