Still Feel out of it, weird, disconnected a week after smoking weed

[Benjii24]

I smoked weed a week ago and when I smoked I felt like it wasnt right. I've only every smoked 4 times, and 2 of them (the last 2) I got this horrible sensation:
- I kind of felt dizzy, or rather like the world was spinning, or my head was.
- I felt the immediate need to sit down or lie down.
- I thought I was going to die or pass out.
- My eyes went very weird, also almost "spinny", and I couldn't keep them on anything for more than a second. Also like they were staring past everything and staring into space, like they weren't working properly and like they were blinking/refreshing very fast and noticeably, or like they were flickering.
- My heart was beating unbelievably fast.
- I was incredibly scared.
- I felt disconnected from reality (it's being high, i get that, but it scared me.)
- There's probably more I can't describe.
It lasted for like 5 mins each time then went and I think maybe it was a panic attack, I don't know really. However a week later I still feel really off, and kind of disconnected from reality:
- I feel like things aren't real, like I'm in a dream, ike I'm not really here, or like my mind is in a different place to my body.
- I feel like I'm just existing, on autopilot.
- I keep panicking and getting scared that I'll be like this forever and I've ruined my life.
- I feel like my eyes are still a bit weird; not spinning still, but like I can't focus on anything or like I stare right through everything, also like what I'm seeing has no affect on me anymore. I sort of feel like I have tunnel vision, too.
- I feel like I'm not in the moment, zoned out, zoomed out, disconnected from reality.
- I feel like I'm high in a way; though I've not smoked weed much before, so I'm not sure how this feels exactly.
- I feel like all I want to do is sleep, or just do nothing.
- I feel like I don't want to do anything, and feel almost like a different person to the one before Friday night when I smoked, as I also can't really imagine the future - in my head, this is it. Also I kind of feel like things that are normal seem slightly foreign.
- I have felt a little like I'm out of control, or going to go crazy.
- There's probably a little more, but I can't come to describe it well, due to the way I feel. I could also have easily over exaggerated how I feel, as I'm fairly sure I have anxiety and depression, something which the weed could have triggered. This almost feels like a constant, toned down version of what I felt immediately after smoking, whenI thought I was going to die, etc.

People have been saying "just exist for a while, it will go away" and stuff like that, but I feel like I can't take it anymore, and certainly like I can't live this way, or deal with the fact that this is how I am forever. I loved my life before, but now, like this I hate it. I also am only 16, and I'm in the middle of my GCSEs. I've had a half term to go through this with, but it ends in 2 days on sunday. I can't tell my parents I smoked, and if I tell my family doctor he might tell my parents, which I'm afraid of, or worse off, he could tell the police, although I'm not sure if he's allowed to do this. I want more than anything to go back to reality, so please help me.

[dominosarah]

Are you involved with any outside activities?  You need to get your mind off this and focus on something else.  What did your parents say to you?  

[atthebeach]

Benji I am glad you are feeling better.
Yes pot can cause anxiety and paranoia, especially if you are predisposed to it.
Jerry is right don't smoke anymore it will just make the symptoms worse.

[atthebeach]

Benji yes pot can trigger anxiety and paranoia especially if you are predisposed to it.
I am glad you are feeling better.
Jerry is right don't smoke anymore it will only make the symptoms worse.

[jerry4664]

benji don't smoke weed!

[VICourageous]

Hi again Benjii24

I kind of described the after affects in your last post, but now it has been a week..I have to totally agree with Danny111. There is something else most likely going on. It does sound like you are over thinking this. Maybe you are under some stress from school or so fourth. Just know that WE must not stuff our emotions in our front pocket. WE have to let things out and get some kind of help or support in the mean while. Maybe go talk with the Dr and tell them what you have told us. He/She should keep it confidential.
Are you getting any Sun or Exercise?? Try to re-direct your thinking the best you can. Maybe pick up a hobby or work on a craft project. Are you eating healthy?? To much sugar or caffeine can do so much to the Brain & Body. They did a study about the diet soda and I was shocked. You are so young to have depression or anxiety but I guess it happens. Get to the core of the issues and find out why. This is where YOU will need help. Try not to dwell or think about the pot anymore. Find out what might be the trigger of your Anxiety or Depression in your life that surrounds you right now. Changes can be made but you have to do the footwork. Also in a way, maybe this happen so you do not ever mess with drugs or booze. You are young and have such a great future. My life is half way over, so I sure do Pray with all of my Heart that this situation has taught you a lesson. Just be Safe and Aware that lots of people do go and take substances to get out of the way they feel. You need to address and take care of it now. It looks to me that YOU are a very smart Kid. I can almost see a Great and Wonderful Future that is ahead for you. May the Lord be with you!
Vickie

[Danny111]

The effects of marijuana wear off in a few hours.  If you're still feeling the way you are it doesn't have anything to do with pot that you smoked a week ago.  You're either way way overthinking things, suffering from these symptoms due to something else, or some combination of the two.

If you're feeling like you may harm yourself in any way you need to get help immediately.  The police aren't going to arrest you for admitting you smoked some pot a week ago.  Your safest is the most important thing.

Let us know how you're doing please.

[Benjii24]

I've actually just started feeling a bit better. I kind of broke down in front of my parents earlier and told them how I feel (not that I smoked though) and I've gone in depth about it with my friend who is good at phychology, and I actually better for some reason. I have been getting scared that this will come back, but hopefully it won't. If it does, I can go to the doctor but if it doesn't then I'll leave it, as that would suggest it's probably a one time thing and you're right about me overthinking things, etc.