Stopping cold turkey, I dont want to do this alone.

[HEM5505]

Ive been on pain meds for 6 years now.  My well meaning podiatrist started me on percocets for foot pain.  Im taking more then prescribed and I need to stop.  I cant go on.  I want my life back.  Im so tired of counting and worrying where Im going to get my next doses.  Not being able to relax without popping a pill.  I don't even know where my body pain is because Ive been on more and more.  In the last 6 months my usage has tripled.  Its scaring the crap out of me, so Im using the Thomas recipe and quitting cold turkey.   My husband is going to help, but he doesn't know how much Ive been taking.  I took 6 days off work and my last pill for tomorrow night.  today at work, was a little slow and my mind started racing and I started to get really nervous and anxious ans cried.  I feel scared and alone.  I was hoping that you guys can help me feel less alone.  Less stupid for getting myself into this position. That there is hope.  I know there is hope, but.. its hard to feel it.  Anyways.. thank you for your time.

[Bkitty]

Just wanted to say Hi and Welcome! You will find some amazing people here that will support you thru all this! You are not alone either we all are fighting this battle with you! ((hugs)~Bkitty

[HEM5505]

Thank you all so much.  - hugs-  And E-hugs are the best.  Im gonna head to bed, have a 12 hour shift tomorrow then the rest of my life hopefully sober.  I know it may be odd that Im counting it down till the start, I guess Im just psyching myself up.  Anyways.. talk to you all tomorrow night and thank you again.  

[Sonrissa]

Hi sweetie! I just wanted to welcome you also! You are not alone! There are absolutely wonderful people here who will help and support you every step of the way! This forum Literally save me! I have met people here who will be dear friends for life! I'm so glad you found us and so glad you posted! I can't offer more than has been said above me, so take care and please post anytime you have a question or need support!  Another hug from me!

[HEM5505]

So Im here at work, almost halfway through the day.  Not having the same anxiety I did yesterday, but Im wondering, Should I hold on two one or two of the pills, break them in quarters and use it when the withdrawals get super bad or will that just start me right back at the beginning?  How does a quarter of a percocet affect coming off of 200mg oxy/day?

[Sonrissa]

For me, the answer to that question is no! Do not hang on to any pills! You will not be able to continue to depend on the pills for relief! If you do this pretty soon you will be right back where you started! Plus, taking a pill is just going to prolong this whole thing! Don't you want to get through this as soon as possible? Get rid of them HEM! You can do this and we will help you! Take care sweetie! Post as often as you need! Big hug!!

[HEM5505]

Thats what I thought. Im getting rid of them.  Its so hard to determine what is rational thinking and what is rationalization when it comes to stopping these meds.  Thank you so much and keep the hugs coming.  - hugs back -