Cloudy in Cali - Not so cloudy today

[kitascloudy]

Good morning! It's the morning of day 5 clean for me. Off of about 4 or 5 Norco a day for a couple years. I honestly don't know when it became a habit. Because just like most everyone it started at the dentist. : P I'm a very young looking 40 year old professional woman and no one would ever suspect i had a problem. I hid it very well. After a few days of tossing and turning, tummy aches, being lethargic- i actually had 6 hours of continual uninterrupted sleep! I did wake up with a back ache, but i think that part of the wd.  Anyway, i feel 100% better this morning. I woke, made breakfast, coffee and am getting ready for work. Those pills are give me a false sense of security to be able to make thru my stress filled day. I was so worried yesterday, thinking of how i was going to make it thru work. Anyway, yesterday in my wd cloud, i read and read and read, most of the posts regarding opiate addiction. i can't tell what a difference everyone's input and testimonials made in my courage to see this through. I did get panicky with the thought of going thru wd for 90 days. I woke up with sun and walked outside and asked
Tunkasila  (the creator) to give me strength to see me thru the day. It was a beautiful sunrise. I plan on staying positive and upbeat today!! My heart and prayers go out to all of you who have this disease..including me. WE CAN DO IT!

[laurel453]

those thoughts you have are normal... most of the people have a lot of trouble saying goodbye to our so called best friends....as you said you have lost a friend, but repeat to you that it was your worst friend, don't mourn a good one, celebrate you have lost the worst one. This is was i repeated to me.... it is quite therapeutic to write a "goodbye letter" ... have in mind also that you will have good and bad days and take them as they come... we tend to overthink a lot for a while and my advice is, if possible, keep things simple. I know it is easier said than done but we overthink, it is a fact..... there are also some general advices after detoxing: leading a sort of disciplined life with exercise and healthy eating and rest ( no matter that you puked your breakfast, keep eating healthy and don't forget your banana and potassium rich food, protein is also good, vegetables :), getting rid of our toxic friends is also a must and aftercare ( NA, counseling, therapy.. whatever it may work for you )...

send a message to your "friends" saying you don't need them and erase the number... :)

[kitascloudy]

I guess this is the thread i'll use.. It's 720 pm and i haven't used since last saturday. I thought about this on my drive home from work. I felt a lil sadness and heartache, like i had lost a close friend. Work was okay and very busy. I can't said i did my best work today but i kept a happy smile on my face.  I tried to stay upbeat and keep my positive attitude and sought out a healthy lunch, keeping in mind the foods that will help my brain go back to normal. I feel a lil lonely at the moment and not sure why. I also had a horrible thought. My "friends" will be calling me telling me my "Avon" is in. Im sure i don't have to explain what that is! I used to get happy getting the Avon texts. But worried how i'll react and what i'll do for the next one. It should be coming in a day or two. Possibly tonight. I'm not fully thru the WD, i know that. Sooo... i feel like that will be my first test of my commitment to this.

[kitascloudy]

It's 1110 and i just puked in my trash can at work. Luckily, i have my own office. Gross! i hate vomiting! My breakfast that was filled with healthy proteins and my banana (potassium) is in the trash can! oh wells. Onward and upward! I have these wierd waves of euphoria that come and go. When they go... im like no...... don't go away! Is this a craving??

[therealmattj]

@kita, well not cloudy in los angeles lol.

[therealmattj]

@kitascloudy.... It is a beautiful day in Cali, take it as a sign. Norco's can be such a seductive drug. I used to eat them for breakfast lunch and dinner. You sound very positive. Rise above good friend and conquer this!!!

[laurel453]

glad you are feeling better and confident :)

btw, it would be better if you stick to one thread so that people can follow you and your story much better