Im new on here. Was stuck in doctor shopping hell for years taking vico, percocets, whatever. Couldnt do it anymore. Was getting ready to find a detox center and just "get it over with" when I came upon information about suboxone. seemed perfect for me. i am a professional. work full time. have a child and husband. Great! Miracle drug!!
Um no. Yes at the time it was a miracle. And I am still unsure about my feelings about whether it was worth it or not. Spent a little over a year on the subs with a wonderfully understanding doctor. tapered down from 16mgs a day to 1 mg a day and feeling fine. (had some minor withdrawals tapering down at various points, but nothing too bad). Discussed stopping all together with doc and was advised that from 1 mg he would not expect any withdrawals at all and if there were any, theyd be minor.
Um no. I am on day 8 with no subs. DAY F****** EIGHT!!! and STILL not right. Days 3, 4 and 5 were the worst with the unexpected torture of inability to sleep (and I take 8 mg of Rozarem with 4 mg of Lunesta each night for insomnia and even with my sleep meds and 2 tylenol PMs, I still spent 3 days/nights awake in horror). Am able to sleep now. the restless leg syndrome has gone away now. i am left with hot/cold chills BS and an extremely crushing fatigue coupled with an extreme case of anxiety and nervousness, Ive NEVER had anxiety like this. Its deep rooted and stuck like a hot stone in the pit of my stomach. Been taking a shot of Tequila here and there (no more than 2 shots in one day and not more than 2 days in a row - dont want to develop yet another "problem". This is actually worse (becuase of the length of the withdrawal) than cold turkey. One time a few years back I was taking oxy (only about 60 mgs a day, which by some standards is low I guess) and locked myself in a room and suffered miserable for 4 days but by the 5 or 6th day I felt FINE all DONE. Again.,, I am on day EIGHT!!!
HOWEVER I will get through this. there is no turning back. My faith and my desire to not be bound to any substances anymore will get me through this. My hubby has been helpful. He has no problems with any addictions so he doesnt really get it but he tries to empathize,.
I pray for everyone on here to get through it I agree with the person who said this is the right of passage to get clean I agree. I feel this is what i deserve for getting into it in the first place, Mentally ive been ready for a long long time and am dealing with the physical now. YOU WILL GET THROUGH IT PEOPLE. IT WILL NOT KILL YOU AND YOU CAN GET YOUR LIFE BACK. GOOD LUCK AN D GOD-SPEED!