Support weaning off of MAJOR ammounts of meds

[luv2bmomjen]

10 Percs, 12 Vicoprofen, and 4 Soma a day.  Need I saw more.  By the end of this month I will be down to 7 Percs, NO Vicoprofen and 3 Soma.  I am scared to death and ready for any and all support to help this be easier.  I have three babies under 6 to care for.  Please help!!!

[luv2bmomjen]

I do wish that I could go cold turkey.  But the nature of the amount of meds and the Soma being involoved could actually kill me.  Or at least that is what the doctor said.  Soma is a very dangerous drug to come off of fast.  That is why I was so shocked that he had me weaning off all three drugs at the same time.  
I have never taken a pill that was not perscribed to me BUT I have always taken the max amount that i was aloud and that is why I know I must be an addict.  And that is the very first time I have ever admitted that to myself.  
I want my life back and I don't want to loose my children and husband in this process.  So everytime I want to reach for more than what I am allowed now I just listen to their little voices.  And even if it is my two year old kicking me in the shin and calling me stupid it is still the most wonderful sound in the world.  Because I am still here to listen to it and I AM strong enough to get through this.  I have to!  I lost my father at 10 years old and I am so ashamed that I have put my children in the position that I could have died on these meds and left them the same way.  That just kills me and makes me one stupid person.  As you can tell I don't like myself very much at all right now.  I was once upon a time a SUPER MOM (that what everyone called me) but I guess I am not so great after all.  Prob the worst mom I know.  That makes me cry.  
As far as people for support.  NONE really.  I did call a close friend of mine this morning who goes to AA meetings and asked her for her help.  She has known me since we were two years old.  I hope to meet her for coffee tommorrow and talk.  My husband has some info on what is going on but really doesn't think I should be this sick because he has no idea how much I was taking or how much I am weaning and I am afriad that he would hate me forever and I would loose my one and only person that I depend on for everything.  We met when we were 14 and have been together ever since.  I don't want him to see that I have made this horrible mistake with our lives.  What a fool I am to have trusted the doctors.  
Please lord just get me out of this mess alive.  

[beck25752003]

yeah i also can cant help with the taper side of it, i also had no control of my drug use so if i had them i took them all. i also felt like it just prolonged the withdraws, the withdraws werent as rough but took alot more days to get through. anyway, what works for you to get off them is fantastic. does anyone in your family or friends know? support is so huge, i tried alot of times to just do it on my own and ended going back out eveytime. for me going through the withdraws was the easy part, when the mental part kicks in thats where the work comes in. i ended up in treatment and now go to meetings everynight. i never thought i needed meetings just as long as i stopped using that was all i had to do and i would be great. well not so true for me, i needed to change myself inside and change almost all things in my life. i lost alot of people close to me in my disease and work everyday so i wont lose anymore. hot baths and walks were a god send for me, even though it took everything inside of me to do either of them in withdraws. reading and writing helped also. please let aleast someone in your family or close friend know what is happening with you, you will be amazed how much support people will give and how much better you will feel getting it out. meetings are great cause you see faces and faces of people that are just like us and want to help you stay clean as much as you do. i hope this helped some, you will be in my prayers

[luv2bmomjen]

Yes having some withdrawls.  I have not cut back to the where I have to be yet so more to come soon I am sure.  It is not fun.  And taking care of a 7 yr old 5 yr old and 2 yr old is a handful without anything else on top of it.  I am so scared I cant think straight.  The only thing I have found to help today is Red Bull.  I am going to the vitamin store to see if they have any suggestions.  
Thank you so much for the help and advice.  

[mommytobrae]

I cant really give you advice on how to wean off meds because for me the weaning never works. I either go back to taking my full amount or if i stick to it, it just seems to prolong the withdrawls so i always quit cold turkey. However for you it looks like you have stayed stong and stuck to your weaning plan so i wanted to congratulate you on that! I know how friggin hard it is to try to get off these pills and take care of kids! I only have one 2yr old but when i am sick with withdrawls it seems like it takes everything i have to just change her diaper and feed her! I quit methadone today again cold turkey and wanted to tell you that the withdrawls will go away and you willl feel better everyday (if you are having them). Are you having withdrawls?