Surely it gets better?

[krbkwb02]

All, It will surely get better, and has for me. I am on Day 8 no opiates, Day 49 no Methadone. Yesterday was horrid, but awoke this morning on Day 8 with a renewed passion to not fail, though I was close to caving in yesterday. For what its worth this has been my track to date, though not easy but definetly not ridicuolusly hard either. I have used Ultram, and yes I know what you will say....but a "smaller sword" will at least keep some of the Demons away! Days 1-3 Ultram about 300-400mg...Days 4-6 Ultram about 250mg, Multivitamins and Magnesium Supplement. Day 7 Ultram again about 400mg, Multivitamins, Magnesium, Exercise, 5 hour energy shot, it was a little rough for some reason, could have been the combination of things.

Awoke this morning telling myself...I will not bow...I will not break...I ill do whatever it takes....obviously the Song "I will not bow" by Breaking Benjamin....took 1 Ultram, multivitamin, magnesium and half a bottle of 5 hour energy... I feel stronger...could this be the sun coming out from the clouds or is it all a masquerade? I plan on hitting the gym today, continue what I call music therapy, and some 5 hour energy but hopefully no more Ultram...Comments?  

[krbkwb02]

I think the "key" is energy, if you are drained, naturally one sits around and thinks about it....so we have to stay "energized"! It seems to be working with high doses of music therapy and vitamins!  

[krbkwb02]

Yeah I know, thats why I am going to start geting it gone today....hopefully then I will see the true face of whats going on whithin me....lets hope my "plan" for beating this is correct!    

[ImDONENoMore]

It will get better and you'll start to believe that more and more with time.

The only thing I'm a little worried about (you know what I'm going to say right?)  The Ultram. Very slippery slope right now my friend - so be VERY careful with that. Too easy to cross-addict at this time right?

:)

[krbkwb02]

You know whats crazy, I am seeing glimpses of the person I used to be...its wild, but I think now Ican be come "addicted" to that feeling...its a wild ride, but I love that feeling, of becoming unslaved!  

[krbkwb02]

Music has been a "saving grace" so to speak....food for the fight? thanks for the comment.....it seems to come in small waves now, not lasting long, but no tsunamis.....lol.....one day at a time...though its hard not to look to far ahead!

[littlebit010101]

Yelp sounds like u turned a corner...awesome plan, awesome attitude...keep on keeping on...best wishes...it gets so much better..