This Funk

[disFUNctional]

Hey all I have made it 15 days and I am so excited for that...but when oh when will I get out of this funk.  I tried to go shopping today.(my very favorite thing to do)  I wandered around like I was lost and felt like everyone was looking at me.  I have always been a bubbly person...cheerful and happy.  Will that return or have I ruined myself forever?
Love,
Kim

[coldsweats]

it's a anti depressant drug... Just when i felt like i was going nuts  I was put on lexapro! It's non addictive! It's helps calm me down when before I wanted to rip everyones head off! Helps keep me focused end most of all sane! The only down fall is that if you start taking it and then after a month or two you no longer need it you have to ween yourself. It's not a ct drugs but I am under the impression that the worst side effect to stop is brain saps that last for approx2 weeks! The wd are nothing like substance withdrawls!! Lexapro has saved me and my relationships with others... Xo

[disFUNctional]

Sorry for the ignorance...but what is Lexapro...what does it treat?/
Thanks
Love,
Kim

[SmartYetStupid]

I would suggest going to your doctor and asking her/him about Lexapro.  It has helped me TREMENDOUSLY!   I really do not know if I could quit without it.

[havemercyoxy]

I have being feeling mostly like said above.  I really stopped posting about it because I felt likt I was depressing everyone and I did now want to bring anyone down, knowing more than likely people feel bad enough as it is.......REally I feel pretty=====.... I have had a couple of good days but for the most I am sick as a dog and crying all the time. I think maybe I should make that call that I did not want to.  The Dr:(  I don't think I can do this anymore without some help from  a Dr.  I am scared to death and I was 18 days ago when  I went ct from oxy, xanax & perc. using because of failed back surgery in 1999. I so wanted off the meds, so tired of no matter what it was had to have a pill just to get started.:(  Right now I do not see any light at the end of any tunnel..........i am so sick..I think if I had my med I do the hold bottle..........sorry I do not mean to bring any one down or to spoil the moment for anyone... What do you all think should I get  Dr. help or wait it out?  Or am I just having another bad day and it will pass? Did any of you all feel this way? I want to feel normal again I am doing the Amino Pr.. Yes I do realize that I should have consulted my dr, before hand, really I did not know what I was up against but I am an addict  and I know that is why I am where I am, the drugs had me fooled....................................:(

[coldsweats]

congrats on 15 days!! I'm proud of all of you! Exercise exercise exercise... It's sounds horrible but I feel like a functional humanbeing afterwards! I stay away from caffeine and sugars now and that seems to help for some reason too! Your energy will come back!! Stay positive and smile, you're clean

[kimmieb]

boy, all of this sounds 100% totally like me....i'm only on day 7 today, but i feel exactly the same way y'all are describing....i'm about a week behind you....but can't stop constantly thinking about how i'm feeling, etc.....i just want to feel NORMAL again, but it's been so long since i've been "normal" that i don't even remember how that feels....sad, but true....i thought i was "normal" when i was taking the lortabs for my pain....i guess i WAS normal for awhile, it wasn't until my major surgery (hysterectomy) which sent me into an overnight menopause a little too early that i started taking more and more lortabs....prior to that (a year and a half ago), i was only taking 1-2 a day....and it was under control, no cravings or anything....then something snapped right after the surgery....

ANYWAY, i just wanted to share and put my two cents in and say that i know exactly how you're feeling because i'm feeling it ,too.....it's so darned hard to remain positive, hopeful, and patient!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

blessings and prayers to everyone going through this recovery stuff....
k.

[kksmama]

i am just finishing day 16.  I am glad to hear i am not alone in my funk.  It takes all i got in me to just get me and my daughter ready and out of the house in the AM.  Then off to work and all day i just want to lay down and cant.  So i keep pushing.  I am a shopper too and i dont even want to do that.  I feel so anxious all the time.  So self-consious!  There are times i cant stand to be touched. I panic in bed when i feel my husband is too close, i freak out and go to try to sleep on the couch!!  So keep in mind we are in this together and lets continue to push on together.  I know deep down it will get better

[gizzy32]

Just remember you are still so early in your recovery. There are so many ups and downs that first month or so. One day is good and we think WOW, and the next day the total opposite. We didn't do this to ourselves overnight and we can't expect to heal overnight either. I got so impatient too at times, but that is why they call this recovery, it *****, lol. Congrats on 15 days.

[merrymaria]

i felt the same way as you...  i think it s just our brains are still a little messed up.  i was in a funk a long time but then suddenly i snapped out of it.  it just takes time to readjust ourselves.  laughter is the best medicine and it s not always easy to do when you feel low so try to surround yourself with things that make you happy or watch funny movies, tv show s or listen to music you enjoy.  it will get better.  give your self time to heal..keep the faith...maria

[disFUNctional]

OMG I swear my every thought is about how I am feeling too.  It is making me feel like a big cry baby.  If this would just level out I would feel soooo much better.  I guess we just gotta hang tough.
Thanks so much!  It helps to know someone else is in the same boat.
Love,
Kim

[Bad Co]

I am on day 14-15 too and just a few days ago I felt better than I do now. I am also in this fog/dim/lazy-a$$/depressed/anxious/where am I/where did my laugh go? funk as well. I thought I was a hero last Friday, I was feeling good, functioning like a professional and getting some decent sleep. Now I feel like oatmeal all over again.  

I can't wait until the time comes where my every thought is not about how I feel or when I will feel normal either.

Hang in there, you're not by yourself....

[refusingbondage]

Hey - no, I dont think you have ruined yourself forever.  It just takes time.  I felt really depressed and the same way (more so than ususal cause Im not bubbly/happy ever lol) too.   The important thing is to keep trying.  I was in such a low state but would find myself laughing here and there and then oen day I just woke up happier.  Nothing brought it on, it just happened.. And it will for you too.  You are totally not ruined forever.  Hang in there.