Hi Angelica,
I just wanted you to know that I'm thinking of you and missing you and hoping that everything is ok, since you haven't posted in a while.
:-)
WW
Jenny,
I'm just wanting you to know that you are on my mind, and I"m sending you healing energy and strength, hoping that you are doing ok. Please know that we are with you, even when you aren't able to post.
lots of love,
WW
Gotta a ?. If or when I beat this, I know the pain will come back. So what is the solution for it? Do I go back on Vic's or will my tolerence be just too high. Or what other pain med's are recomended. I know that any narcotic can be addicting, but I have to worry about Vic's because I'm a para and need to keep an eye out for my liver. So what other "fillers" are in say Percocet or Oxy. I dont think Oxy would be that helpful, because I need the immediate relief, rather than a time release. I have been to dozens of doctors and tried all sorts of non-narcotic pills, with no help. I am still willing to try anything, but I might not be seeing an...as up to date doctor as I should? Thanks for the reply...
Peace Out...
Doc...
I'm here, and alive, but in the shadows!!!
i'm not doing well with my quitting, etc. etc.
i'm still using, cut down quite abit, but just couldn't take the cold turkey with all the demands of the kids and the 'new' husband who is lost in his new world.
he is going to meetings, which is wonderful, went on a job interview today, and got the job. it will involve traveling to south america, carribean, mexico all over the place... he even got a company vehicle!!!
He still looks so lost, and i know it will take time.
If he knew what i was doing, he would be heartbroken.
I am trying to find the strength, but i can't confess because i don't want to push him into relaspe. This is so very hard!
I will try harder tomorrow.
Lv Jenny
jenny:
it's 3:00 am cst. I've been awake since 1:oo am. one of my neck
pain nights. went off oxy-c last sunday. My pain doc cut me back
to 30 mgs bid. anything under 40 just won't work--so i thought
**** it and quit again. My pain councelor will be real unhappy
with me as i promised him i'ld not do this on and off **** any
more.
Jenny, my heart goes out to you and the rough time your having
cleaning up your hand. Have you considered Buprenrphine detox?
I don't know much about it, but have heard real positive reports on this forum and else where. Perhaps even following up with a nal-trexone pellet inserted sub-q. the naltrzone sub-q is rather radical, but it would buy you 3 months of clean time, without the
option of backing out. i don't really like the idea of "running
someone elses program," so i'll just shutup about it from here on. it really tears me up to see the difficulty your having though.
when i was really strung out on heroin my world just seemed to
shrink down to me (ugh), my hypo, my spoon, and nothing else. the
smaller my world became the more desperate i became, until one day the gun in my mouth seemed the only option. Jenny, your world has chidren and a husband, something mine didn't have at that time. please don't let things go that far, as it is not an option available to you!
i could always find many reasion to keep on using, and so will
you. there is only one reasion to quit--because you can't go any
longer in an ever shrinking world! You, your children,& your
recently clean husband are in my prayers...
need all of the people (you too) on this forum
kip
Hey Jenny
If you plan to do it at home you may want to consider an outpatient rehab that dispenses buprenex. I went to Dr. Gooberman in NJ (What an A-Hole) after I could deal with the pain after my back surgery. It made it a lot easier but after starting physical therapy I relapsed.And the good Dr. wanted 250.00 to dispense more buprenex. Which I can not afford after spending all my money on Dr's and pills. Like I said the clonidine and baclofen helped but either way you are gonna feel like something sucked the life out of you.I wanted to try Thomas' recipe but I started taking zoloft and they warn you not to. I am on day five of withdrawal and I feel the worst is over actually got up and went to therapy today. I wish you the best of luck and God Bless