bad night in hospital atm

[fpvfembacktobreakfree]

Morning what a hell of a night I've woken in hospital app fell last nite badly damaging my recently operated on shoulder had a epileptic fit for 20 mins my partner told me my Dr has put me on morphine for pain relief as they do for what's happened to me don't know when i get to go home might need surge again Im now back at square one i hate myself so much i just want to be better its never gonna happen ever

[minn66]

Hi AJ, so glad you don't need surgery! I know how strong and awesome you are, so do what you need to get better. Hang in there, hun!

Big huge major hugs,

Minn

[smiles4eva]

So happy you are home and surgery isn't necessary :) Also very glad to hear you aren't beating yourself up!   Hugs

[ribs2k]

I don't know how I missed all of this. AJ I am sorry to hear you are having some bad luck. I am glad you won't have to have surgery, that is a relief. Focus on healing and move forward from there.
Much Love Randy

[fpvfembacktobreakfree]

Hey guys Im home got discharged this arvie no surge thank the lord just bad bruising. N swelling still on morphine but only when REALLY needed iburohen n codine tabs(15mgs codine) so very sore no work for a while Im not giving up i wont off can't believe my luck id be 30 days the last two weeks have been very tryin god give me strength to stay positive Im tryin my hardest i can learn to handle my pain better in not beating myself up Im just sharing my thoughts thanks for all the kind words n prayers much love ya friend in oz aj xoxo

[dominosarah]

Stay accountable for your actions and just get better~~

[Pat1956100]

Hey girl,
My heart is going out to you.  You will be okay.  Just relax and get better.  that's the most important thing right now,  Sending lots of love.
Pat

[minn66]

AJ, I'm so sorry! Hun, this isn't your fault. Sometimes it sure seems like one step forward, two steps back, doesn't it? Right now, concentrate on your health and getting better. You've been so strong and determined, and I know this has got to be frustrating. I am just thankful you are well enough to post and are getting the care you need. You've got all of us here pulling for you!

Muah and hugs, my dear friend from oz,

Minn

[gnarly_1]

Hey Girl from OZ your going to make it a few days in the hospital on morphine is not going to set you back much.......might make you crave a bit more but I doubt any withdrawals so hang in there and get well im so sorry to her of your epileptic fit and now your messed up shoulder I will pray for you .....your going to make it Girl dont loose site of that good luck and God bless..........Gnarly

[smiles4eva]

Oh no! I am so sorry :( Do not hate yourself!  You have been so strong and amazing!  Wishing you peace and comfort :) hugs

[Free2agoodhome]

YOU are NOT back to square one...look at the progress you made..how many people you gave hope to.....shi_ happens and this too shall pass,,,,,dont beat yourself up....you have tools now and more importantly a blueprint on how you made it through before,....

[wransomejr]

AJ...thinking about you and sending you all the love and positive energy, prayers, etc I can. Bless you and your partner. -Randy

[fpvfembacktobreakfree]

I know its ok Im doing what the Dr say i just feel like everytitime i get better i get knocked back il stop beating myself up its hard tho Im trying to remember what happened last thing i remember is walking from couch to kitchen then woke up here :-(

[Stacy_Lynn]

Do u really feel like ur mentally back to square 1? I'd say NOT!! U just can't have the mental addiction u once had & after 29 days clean, yes u still are, then u will be ok! Look @ how far u have come!! Sending prayers for a speedy recovery to OZ! U have new tools to handle this now, just use them!! U can do this!!

[IBKleen]

I am so sorry you went through all of this and I hope that you get to feeling better soon.

Why do you think that you are back to square one? Did you go out on the street and buy drugs? Did you scam for them? NO. You had a medical emergency and you took "medication" under a doctor's care. Is that correct?

Hun, get yourself better and stop beating yourself up. You are only adding stress to the mix. Go relax and let us know how you are feeling. You are in my prayers.

[Sonrissa]

Hey! These things happen! It's called life! Good grief please just concern yourself with feeling better & healing! That is the most important thing right now! Don't stress about the future as it will only delay the healing! Sending you prayers! Feel better soon! You have so much support here and you can deal with anything else once you heal and feel better! Do what the doctor says! Take care!!