Tramdol withdrawl...I feel very ill

[artistsandie]

I was placed on Tramadol for pain management 5 years ago. I did not abuse my prescription, in fact took less. Now as my health has improved i decided I no longer needed it. I never felt i was addicted, was i blind! I have weaned down and today is my fist day with that drug. What more do I need to expect will happen coming off this medication. I have never been involved with drugs or drinking so this is hard. I know no who has gone through withdrawals. I cannot sleep and haves huge waves of feeling like bugs are running on all my nerves. I sit in the shower   as long as the water keeps warm and make many trips to the restroom. How long will this last?

[minn66]

Hi sandie, yes, they are goldfish. Feeder fish, in fact, that we had gotten at Petsmart for eleven cents each! They are happy and have grown and multiplied. Last year was the second year we'd had them and they had babies, and now there are more babies this year. Some of them are silvery white, others black and white, some are solid black, and some are solid gold.

We do have a red Crimson Queen Japanese Maple in front of our bay window. Hubby has had it for about ten years and planted it there before we even got married. My yard was quite barren before he came along. He made the front bed and two smaller ones in the front yard as a birthday gift five years ago.

Behind the storage building there is a lovely red plum tree and since it is shady there, he planted wood poppies, hostas, and several varieties of ferns.

Last year, he made a bed that we call the Heart Shaped Bed. It has a weeping Cherry and a River Birch that was almost dead that he rescued from Wal-Mart and brought back to life. Paper thin strips of bark are peeling from it and gives it unique texture. He also found a thing, flat rock and placed it upright so that it looks like a sculpture.

I am so thankful for this lovely, peaceful oasis in the suburbs. I know I am lucky in many ways. Why is it human nature to dwell on what we don't have rather than what we do? Well, I am working on improving that! I have a lot to be grateful for.

I am looking forward to seeing your pictures and once we get the rest of the pine nugget mulch down I will try to post some myself.

Have a blessed day,

Hugs,

Minn :)

[artistsandie]

Randy, Glad to hear from you I have missed you and was hoping and lighting candles all was well. Yes the depression when it comes is a challenge, yet I am just putting it in my withdrawals symptoms box and just shutting the lid, so to speak.  Yes I can truly and fully empathize with that buggy anxious feeling you’re going through.  As you know it takes time to get past that one, I still have it on and off was better for the first time last night. I managed not to have to take a shower, fist time no showers all night long. Do you have a gym near you Randy?  I have found swimming and the sauna helpful, also am not drinking anything with caffeine in it. I am so happy to see you and know you can get this done and as you know I fully understand exactly how it all feels. You are doing great and on the path to taking back your health.
Have a light out for you and may your journey be more pleasant everyday
Sandie

[artistsandie]

Now you should be a writer as I loved your description of your restful harbor.  I can just see the water making its way into the pond of fish, how soothing. You have large goldfish or are they koi? I have done a few painting of koi. I will have to get them out and post photos for you. Yes photos of your peaceful place would be lovely to look at. My little oriental garden is confined to the patio as we have over three acres and beyond my fenced yard are the horses, chickens and of course Poe. We are over run by rabbits as they come in from the hills as soon as all the wild vegetation has gone brown, our green yard attracts them by the handfuls, a sight from Watership Down, (the book).  I will post photos as well of my peaceful place, still a work in progress.  I made it to the gym last night and had a good swim and nice stay in the sauna as well as my chat with Swim Lady, was good to see her. I had a very unsettling Monday night and was just frustrated with the whole sleeping issue. I am happy to say I found myself in bad last night by 1:23 and slept for most of the night. I was awoke at 8 this morning so I hope to keep moving in this more positive direction regarding my sleep. I have my options support class this evening and look forward to seeing all my classmates. I am going to fit my gym in before I go and maybe even a moment out in the sun, it would feel wonderful to just soak it up.  Have a great day and please tell me more about your garden, I love reading about it and I can just see everything you describe to me. Japanese maple, yes the dark bronzed red leaf, lovely.

[wransomejr]

Oh yeah...the depression got to me and I relapsed last May. Couldn't stand it. I know it is a general part of opiate recovery, but I think it feels more acute with Tramadol. Don't let it get you off track! Sleep issues continue for me too. I did not go weeks with no sleep this time but my sleep is off kilter and I can go to bed feeling fine and wake up at 2AM with the crawlies and have to get out of bed. I just don't let myself get too frustrated. You are doing well so pat yourself on the back and keep on trucking! Peace, friend. -Randy

[minn66]

My goodness, you should be a writer! Are you? I could picture everything you described and it sounds like a paradise.

Our theme is Japanese. We have a statue of a wise bearded man next to one of the water features. Water flows through a fish's mouth into the pool. A green lace leaf Japanese Maple drapes down and almost touches the water. There are Japanese painted ferns, a dwarf Japanese red pine that drops tiny baby pinecones, and day lilies.

The other water feature starts at the base of some large, natural boulders at the edge of the woods. Two dry creek beds wind down the hill. There were natural stone shelves in the hillside that hubby made into a waterfall, which trickles into a pool, which has large goldfish that I enjoy feeding. Where the dry creekbeds meet, there is a Tiger Eye Sumac.

I so enjoy sitting out there just watching or walking around and pulling weeds here and there.

Thank you for your encouragement. I may get up the nerve to post some art. I may also post some pictures of our little paradise. I am grateful to hubby for making the yard so lovely. He has a natural gift for that sort of thing.

Have a wonderful, peaceful day :)

Minn

[artistsandie]

Sounds like you had a great weekend in the company of the nature of your wonderful Garden of Eden.  I can hear your birds just chirping and darting in and out of the water in a bathing ceremony. I too have a water feature, a Buda sits holding a lotus and the water flows from the center of the flower babbling a soothing tune.  I have seen a nut Hatch as he defies gravity on the underside limbs of one of the big elms.  I have not seen him at the feeders, more common the house finches, yet some very nice yellow ones on occasion perch to pick out the seed of their choice before being run off buy another.  I think the most impressive bird is this great white stork who feeds on the grubs in the green planted oat field. At night we are often visited by a huge owl, it glides silently, and then there is a whirl of wings as it picks off a small mouse making its way to the bird feeders.  I have night blooming jasmine growing of the gate arbor and adore the way it perfumes the air when it is in bloom   to sit on the back patio and look over the roses on the fence, there beyond the huge pepper tree and barn the hills rise up rather suddenly and bands of coyotes make their way yipping on the trail of some game they have noised out in the dusk.  You can see their silhouettes on a full moon like we had this weekend, plump and golden and just huge as it hung over the hills on its rising. I am sure you saw that huge moon as well.
It was a mixed bag this weekend, still upside down in sleeping, yet did get sleep. I was able to get a number of errands taken care of outside home. I am back to doing most of the cooking now and that helps me feel grounded.  I spent a bit of time working on healthy meal plan for the upcoming week. We had rock fish for dinner this evening, with green beans and harts of romaine salad. I also made it to the gym and for the first time working on the “Circuit”, trying new and interesting machines. Now some were easy and others were a bit more challenging.  Yet I did explore the, how does this work and what does it feel like. On many occasions while I have been dressing at my locker after my swim and my stay in the sauna a I have chatted with a  young lady who has a locker next to mine. I call her “Swim lady”, it is a meeting that has been as exacting as if we had planned it, then she departs for her swim after we have talked for a bit and as she parts she says, “Have a good evening Sweetie”, at that moment I feel my lips find a smile and am thankful for our meeting as it has lift me more filled with promise and joy.  A small encounter with a person I had not known now lends itself to an expectation of saying hello to swim lady and sharing thoughts on the day along with her advice on my keeping centered on my workout plan.
I hope your week will go well for you, every day I know for myself gets a bit better. Yes please post your work. I would love to see it. I know it is hard at times to share that part of yourself, I always geta little nervous when I post mine.
Sandie