Good Morning - Day 19

[tavia14]

Good Morning! Ugh! Some days feel like crap ( plain & simple crap)! This morning I woke up so foggy and sneezy it almost seems as if wds are sneaking back :(. Thank goodness I do know this is all part of the course and that these days will become fewer and fewer. It's horrible everytime I went back and relapsed I picked a different harder pill to come off of. This time I tried methadone ( only two weeks) but shoot I have no idea what mg I was taking all I know is I took alot in those two weeks and then finally said what the hizzle I need to STOP! And of course one of my all time favs tramadol so all this to say that I know my body needs time :) And only clean time is what I will give to it :) On teh flip positive side I went to our fair last night and the concert was off the hook :) SOOOO fun and tonight is my anniversary 6 yrs married 17 years together. Sheesh time goes so fast! we are off to the Doobie Brothers tonight should be a treat being clean and all. I have a few phone calls into addiction specialist and in the midst of changing my primary. I love him and he has been my doc for years but he is a pushover and will give me pain meds in a minute I need a stern doc that won't put up with my manipulative self :)! Have a great day all!

[Jimmy1975]

Loveddddd those guys in the 70s and 80s ! Was Michael Mcdonald with them ? Glad you had a blast !  Jimmy

[tavia14]

Good Morning! The concert was awesome!! We had a blast! And guess what I did it all clean. I had a moment when my husband was drinking for you see I have never been a big drinker but everytime he would have a glass of wine or any type of cocktail I would be high on pills and it seemed the more he drank the more I would run to my purse to pop so I guess you would say watching him drink was a trigger. He only had 2 beers and for a moment I thought well let me join him and then I rethought :) I don't enjoy drinking and I am having a great time why do I need to alter the way I feel???? Let me just enjoy this! Geez! ( I know way too much thinking for a concert) :) Nonetheless I did nothing except danced my booty off and embraced my clean time...Now if I could only get my energy to side with me :)....OK Day 20 and yes there is no stopping now ....Thanks everyone ..off for a quick jog...Oh almost forgot concert was at a casino so we went in for a moment and actually left without spending all our money :) ...Incredible music 35+ years and the are still off the hook!

[dominosarah]

How was the concert?  How you feeling today?

[cleangimnow]

I'm with u on the rollercoaster!  I've had moments where it crosses my mind to use just one. NOPE!!! Step backwards. I believe that it is day 20!! I sure as heck don't want to start on day 1 again.  Let's keep pushing. :). Geez it's been hard but I keep telling myself that anything worth doing is going to not be easy!  Have a great day!

[NeedsEncouragement]

Hope you had a wonderful evening!  Congratulations on the courage to keep pressing forward, even when it seems like you are moving backwards!!

[atthebeach]

day 19. you got this. you go girl. proud of you.
hey have fun you are probably at the concert now. happy anniversary.
time will heal.

[dominosarah]

That is why we promote aftercare so much.  We learn the tools that we need to live a clean healthy life.

[tavia14]

Thank you, Sara, will do on the careful part. Good thing I don't have one single pill anywhere or anyway to get them :) it sure does help because these are the times that are dangerous!

[dominosarah]

Happy Anniversary!!  Enjoy the concert, just be careful.......sara