Vicodin and how I feel now being rapidly detoxed

[Rebekkah]

I am desperate, please reply if you have any ideas.  I have been on Vicodin for about fifteen months and nine days ago was rapidly detoxed. I had a long history of depression etc for many years.  I was prescribed Vicodin ES for migraines and chronic hip pain for these last 15 months. Before the vicodin, I was tried on every combination known to man and psychopharmacology never proved to be beneficial. About fifteen months ago, I was hospitalized at Cedars sinai Psych unit for depression, cutting and suicidal ideations.  I was perscribed 100mg od demerol for about 33 days which would addict anyone to narcotics.  They switched me to Vicodin and supprisingly enough during the time I was on the Vicodin all of those intolerable feelings of wanting to end my life went away. I was fully functional, I also happen to be a medical professional which makes the whole situation worse.  I am not at all in trouble at work for this Vicodin issue.  They don't even know about it.  My issue now is that the feelings of cutting myself and wanting to take my life are back and very strong. I have a PHD and an aneshesiologist which believe the treatment is psychotherapy and more psych meds. I am tired of that. I just want to end it. I'm nervous about going back on Vicodin because that type of drug is not acceptable to society but the drugs that they want me one prozac etc are useless to me. My delemma Vicodin vs suicide.   Thank you for listening.

[Vivian]

Listen, don't take your life for anything. I too am just starting
to taper myself off the vicodine. I have been hooked on this
before only not as strong and I was not as old. I quit smoking
several years ago (and believe me that took some doing) and I feel like I can take care of this. I have noticed too that work seemed alot more tolerable than before I was taking the Vicodin and now that my surgery is up my doctor informed me that the drug supply was also comming to an end. So, here I am back at trying to get rid of something in my life that only should serve a purpose for a short time. But I will be ok because My Faith in God is powerful. No I am not a religious nut, I just simply love God and have total faith in him. He has never let me down before and I am 35 years old. Put your heart into his hands and let him take care of this problem. He will do it. I know he will. Taking your life is not the answer. It never is. Watch Touched by an Angel sometime on Sunday nights and you will see what I mean. God found me at a young age. I was a child with alcoholic parents and my mother was an athiest. How he found me I will never know. But I have loved him my whole life. There is Power in prayer and you don't have to go to church for it. It is simply available where you are right now. Take care of yourself and trust in HIM. Good luck and God Bless you

[tom to Joan C]

I believe it is an anti-depressent of some kind. The ativan no doubt potentiated the Remeron. I seem to remember someone on this board saying they used Remeron at bed time ...

[Joan C]

Well, I went to see my doctor and took my husband with me.  Not only did he give me my ususal meds, but also prescribe Remeron.  Talk about being out of it.  I took the Remeron with 2 ativan and got so zonked, my husband was going to call the hospital.  Does anyone know what Remeron is, I though it was an anti-depressive.

[joedice]

right those kind of precription drugs are ot acceptable, but yet booze is i agree with you 1000%, i"m a vicodan addict of 10 years..its no picinic trying to get them...best of luck to you joe

[Lynn B]

Dear Rebekkah -- sure hope you're feeling better.  I deal with chronic pain, too.  I'm also a recovering addict.  I work with a pain management specialist and a pain managementn/recovery psychologist.  With the help of a good solid program of recovery and professional assistance, I can manage my pain and stay clean and sober.

When you're talking about cutting, it seems that a good psychiatrist who knows addiction AND pain management might be of benefit.  As you well know, cutting is just a short vacation from the real stuff, so why even bother??  Tell your doc what's going on, and get the help you know you need.  You don't ever have to do it alone...  best -- Lynn

[Brighty]

Your husband is right. A doctor can't treat a person properly if they don't know the truth. Prednisone is no joke and you're not the only person who has side effects.. so please speak up,honey, so you can get some relief. Having trouble breathing is serious business. What if your child told you he had a stomach ache and he really had a problem seeing things.... you'd be giving him Pepto Bismol when he likely needed glasses. Lot's of good that would do him. It may not be acceptable to tell the world how lousy we feel. But it's something you MUST tell your doctor !! Doctor's can't know ahead of time when they prescibe something if it's going to be the wrong med for the person. Everyone is different. Just tell him the truth. Please make an appointment today !! Love, Brighty